I've been on this big Drunken Tiger trip all day...T.T I have NO idea what came over me. Earlier this afternoon I was talking to Maki-chan and all the sudden, as I was going through angelpop to tell them off (yet again) I saw their 3rd CD was out. I wanted it so bad! BC has it, and I liked it. Shit I liked their 2nd one. But anywayz, so I d/led the little mini clips they have there and I was like AH! Drunken TIGER HIP HOP! So I've been on napster just d/ling as much as I can as I wait for my Drunken Tiger 2 CD and wait till I get the 3rd one. -sigh-
As big a fan as I am of DT, I LOVE YG more, cuz I love 1Tym 1st. When it came to Korean hip hop, it was all about 1Tym 1st. Then you know Jinusean, and Yang Hyun (YG himself), Perry, and so on. YG is da shit man! I love YG. But I just heard (and this is how late I am) that DT might have dissed YG on their album. I'm not sure which one and what track, but I got all this from the YG Family forum The lyrics go something like .... something like "Yang Hyun, actin like he got guns, when you no dat korea's got none, how is your wife wit my kids? its nothing personal its just show biz" -.-;;;;;;; it's not unlike JK or Shine, but why YG?? Not like YG be hatin on them or nutthin. Personal grudge? Maybe DT hatin on YG. Thas so sad too because I love YG and DT. Boo. Why they gotta hate on each other man...that's sucks.
Some of the songs I did get from DT today are I want You, Stairs from Heaven, Sweet Talk,and The Movement I like all these songs...they so hot...but man...I love Jinusean!!!! T.T Okay you know what, easy solution for me.
I'm sticking to H.O.T ^.^v
H.O.T Jjang!!!!!!
Anyway, I'm not in the mood sadly enough to work on 36 Moons BUT, I did draw Junpei aka Jun! He looks like a kid...hmm...well we all know he's not. My eye itches....o.< very annoying cuz it's all in the corner of my eye and I can't scratch it. >.<;;;;
Woo Linna read alot of my fics in 2 days. I was like whoa...go Linna! She liked a lot of them though Butterfly with Black Wings and Angel Egg scared her. Hehehhe ^.^v
I had english today, and math. I took a test in math and then went home. It was great. But that was after I spent 5 hours on campus doing nothing because my wack friends where...err...being wack. But...I managed to kill time and have lunch and do my math hw. So I'm good. -yawn-
Okay time to go chill. Laterz~*
One Luv~*
Wednesday, April 4, 2001 - 08:50 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Today had to be a weird, sorta busy day. I woke up and had art class, which wasn't so bad. I still had to draw figure, a NUDE figure which was gross enough when it was a male, but it wasn't so bad this time, because it was female. Though it was a woman in her like...mid forties. Maybe later...ew. Anyway, after class I was hungry so with Jasmin and this guy Alex, we went to the mall and went to Friendly's and had chicken strips and a brownie sundae. It was pretty niffy other then I started to feel sick afterwards. UGH...I hate eating. Anyway, I went back to school around 1:45. I had class at 2:30. I didn't want to go. It was my public speaking class. So I ditched. I went to BC's house instead and she had the Shinhwa photo album so I drooled at almost naked Dong Wan and his built cut self, and half naked Jun Jin in a wet towel XD~~ and also him wearing these black pants and a black coat...with nothing else. XD Little Ghost would have LOVED that pic. I could imagine her reaction as she saw him standing there almost naked. Damn he is fine. Anyway, I also got to listen to Druken Tiger's new CD, (JK is STILL lookin fine need I add) and Shine cut off his hair but he looks better. The CD is actually really good...a little slower then The Great ReBirth, but still worth getting. I love JK's hair. He all twisted it up and wore a bandanna around it. Aww.
Anyway, I hung out with BC for like almost 2 hours before I finally left and paid my cable bill (well not mine but my moms) and then came home to sit and do nothing. My dad was home AGAIN (he's still "sick") and he was giving me greif about not eating AGAIN. T.T I hate being told to eat. So when he had dinner or whatever, he made me have a fried bananna they are actually really good, but I wasn't hungry. He made me eat it. Not 2 seconds later did I feel sick again. It was terrible...but it passed. I finally managed to write a long over due letter to Victoria and to Gizmo Girl! Wooo I'm still waiting for letters from Mary Ann, Mickey oppa and Amy. No writing back letter people..=P Boo.
My blog layout is getting SO OLD. I wish Babydoll would fix it already...and I'm waiting for Little Ghost to make my new closer kissy ban ban. ^.^v I have to scan pictures for my new, bigger ban ban...and SHABBY...really had the NERVE to put up a BIG PIC of TAYA, MY HUSBAND FATHER OF MY BABY'S picture up....
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But that's okay...she can do that. As long as she recognizes who he belongs too. -ahem- Anywayz!!!!!! It's all good. And before I forget (I always say that)Part 16- Struggle for Power Oh...man I'm so wack....let me just say how, all by myself, I ate a box of Honey Nut Chex ^.^ (jjang!) Not in one sitting, over time. Anyway, I finished the box recently and threw it away right, and then today I go to my kitchen and I notice the same box sitting on top of the fridge. I'm like WTF...didn't I throw that away??? o.O So I pick it up and feel it's heavy and I'm like DUH new box...-.-;;;;;;
Sniffies...I have english and math 2morrow...but a test in math...so I get to leave early. ^.^ skippy! But man...english...booooo. I use to love english now it just gets on my nerves...-.- Anyway, must be out. Gotta scan, Laterz~ ^.~*
One Luv~*
Tuesday, April 3, 2001 - 10:40 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Another chapter!!! Wow I'm on a roll~ Good for me!
Part 15- An Introduction to Makino Junpei
Okay I have no time to ramble anymore...I must leave. Boo. I'm all late...aiya...I'm about to get in trouble. =P
One Luv~*
Tuesday, April 3, 2001 - 12:10 a.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I had a bad morning. I woke up soooo early today because, someone from the managment came to the bathroom to fix the leaky bathtub. The walls in my apartment are thin as hell so I could hear EVERYTHING this guy was doing. Bangin sumthin metal, dropping stuff...everything was heard and I couldn't sleep anymore until he stopped working. Not too shortly after that I had to get up to go to class. I had gone to bed around 3 in the morning...I was on the phone with BC and the only reason I got off was because my mom had woken up and was gonna catch me on so late...again. And she was gonna yell at me...again. Anyway, I got class about an hour and half earlier then expected because my mom kicked me out of the house -.-;;;;;;;
I sat down and watched a foreign movie subtitled...it was confusing because I didn't see the whole thing from jump so ehh...anywayz, I watched the last half hou of it in the student center then dozed in and out of sleep for the next twenty minutes. This was AFTER I had a can of coke. The coffee shop was closed so I turned to soda, which I had not had in almost 3 months. Afterwards I showed up at class...like...10 minutes late because I stopped to talk to a friend of mine. Then I went home...the whole time driving I felt like I was in a cloud and I felt really tired and moody, like if you said the wrong thing to me I'd snap.
I get home and my dad (whos suppost to be at work but is'nt because he's sick) tells me I look really pissed off. T.T well I am but I deny it. Then my mom has the nerve to tell him I'm not eating and my dad goes on to call me all these names like, a walking skeleton, anoricxe (so can't spell), he accused me of starving myself, and was practically force feeding me. Okay, so I haven't eatten anything from the time I got up...well even later, since 9 last night till now....but I'm NOT hungry! I have to eat soon though...cuz my mom is making me...I got mad at her cuz I'm like damn mom why you gotta go run and tell dad every little thing like when I'm not hungry? So I am grumpy now...cuz I HATE eating. It's vile.
I have to wake up so early 2morrow so I can go to art class. I lied to everyone there so they could leave me alone about the wacko in my art class that likes me. I told them I had a bf...his name is...Erine...ugh sad and sorry can that get?? I don't even like the guy anymore. But I had to get them off my back once and for all. It worked. All I have to do is wait till May and then never worry about those people again. Including Michelle and Jasmin because...they're not real friends.
I have to work soon...gotta start writting since people are loving Amoo Gut Do I was really pleased when I started getting the good feedback, mostly because I was worried that the first couple of chaps are gonna be short and keeping people in edge constantly. Tonight I'll also work on 36 Moons because I know I left that hanging. But I'll work...I promise.
-yawn- Alrighty...thas enough for now. Laterz.
One Luv~*
Monday, April 2, 2001 - 04:56 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Part 14- War: The Blood that Paints Tokyo
I knoe right finally............okay so yeah. Enjoy...it's too late for me...must sleep...laterz.
One Luv~*
Sunday, April 1, 2001 - 01:43 a.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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My day was so boring...I didn't even feel like bloggin...but for the sake of, I will.
I saw Traffic today. It was a long movie but it was good. I went with my mommy and daddy. I'm hanging out with my parents far too much. Anyway they bought to big stuffed animals cuz I'm such a kid at heart. I got a big Panda which I named Ping and a big pig which I named Hamm. ^.^v I barely have enough room on my room for me, my 2 bunnies, my puppy, my peguses, and my cabbit and my Kang Ta pillow...but I manage. My big Eeyore sits on my chair when I sleep so the rest of the little stuffed animals sleep in the corner part of my bed near my head and I sleep normally. I name all my stuffed animals..i have no idea why.
Anyway...my face has become a war zone (_ _);;;;;; It's horrible I use to have decent skin and now it's like...Sodem up in here. It's just horrible. I had this pimple on my chin it's relativly small but red and it won't go away!!!!!! UGH...moments like this, I jus wanna take a razor blade and slice my face open...its so frustarting. I started watching Hana Yuri Dango again. I haven't watched it ina while though the tapes that BC let me borrow have been sitting on my shelf for like ever now. And yeah I'll watch more tomorrow until I'm done. I only have 3 tapes left. Which is always good.
I'll work on 36 Moons tonight...Amoo Gut Do is being sent out with good reaction...and Linna is reading Mo Deun Gut now. She's like loving it because Min Woo is in it. What a reason to love a fic. LOL No I'm kidding I think she actually likes it. ^.^v
Okay I think that's about it....laterz~
One Luv~*
Sunday, April 1, 2001 - 12:04 a.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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A thanks to the Sechskies Forum which is where I got all myc pics today~
Waaaaahhhh Matthew Is just soo hot. ^.^v I love his look...I like him better with hair...a little mad his blonde again though...=/ but that's okay he's still hot. Matthew's hand and he got some big hands too....hmmmm...I bet Little Ghost knows what I'm thinking. Hehehhee >) oh and finally this picture Matthew showing skin I love that one...and it brought like two thoughts to mind. ONETaya! Lookie...cuz Matthew has a freckle/birthmark on his chest and Taya has one on his right side portion of his ribcage right underneath his pec...(yes I stare.) It was so cute. And TWO I wanna write another fic with Matthew x THAT BOI just so THAT BOI could admire Matthew's over all beauty. Hehehhe >)
I got scared a little while ago because I realized that I was like...all on Matthew...and I was like damn I'm a bad wifey to be talkin bout how fuckin hot Matthew is...and I know if Taya did that to me I would NOT be amused. But then I was like, well it's just looking...not like I wanna molest/fondle/rape Matthew. I jus wanna look at him a little. It's not that serious. So =P
I mised the party I was suppost to go today because it's my daddy's birthday and can you believe the two did not click until Thursday night? I was like D'OH!!!!!!! So at least now I have a pretty new dress that I could wear for whenever else I might have a life. -sob- It was such a pretty dress! But on the upside it was raining so I would have gotten all wet and been cold all day because one, the dress is strapless, two, I had to wear strappy sandle porn star shoes to sed party....I would not have been happy. So I guess I didn't miss much. My friends blew up my cell calling me all morning to go and stuff...man I felt bad when I said I couldn't go.
I did go to lunch with my daddy and mommy though. That was okay. Not too bad...I rather have been in Queenz but you know...what can I do. -sigh- I didn't get online until much later...because like I was delayed...ugh stupid...everything that delays me. I'm about to work on Amoo Gut Do my new fic. I write too much...and 36 Moons has forever been on pause...I'lll work on it soon I swear! T.T I've been a lazee sack of poo like my name was Linna. Hehehehhee -glompz- Love u Linna!!
I told my KP oppa that I didn't like Erine anymore...KP oppa is Hye Sung's dongsang/best friend for life...so he told Hye Sung and he was like...I don't care. LIAR! Lying sack of shit I know he cares otherwise he wouldn't have been hatin on Erine before! UGH he's SO WACK. T.T he makes me so mad! Well he can go to hell in a handbasket because he's just an idiot. And I have gotten over Erine...since I saw no point in liking him...I was like bah, fuck it. It's just me, myself and Taya again. And that's all I need and want anywayz. Plus I have my dongsangs, unni-deul and oppa-deuls so it's all good. ^.^v
I read Kara's blog today and I swear she was into Ralph like a jakillion tymz. LOL she's so cute though. Everyone is cute! Heheheh whoa I'm just trippin. LOL. Okay tym for me to send stuff out. Woo...-1Tym dance- yeah I'm wack. I have nothing else to be random about....oh yeah, my Mickey oppa is back in my life! He vanished for like...ever then came back recently! -glompz Mickey- Miiiiiiiiiiisssssssssseeeeeeeeddddd my oppa. Hahahhaa okay I'm wack. Laterz~
One Luv~*
Friday, March 30, 2001 - 10:49 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I'm all hyped up and I really have no reason to be. But hey, it's just like my really sudden depression. Hehehe I'm just weird like that. I'm happy now...I guess...I don't know...I finally got to talk to Shabby...well actually I talked to her before in da H.5.T just under a different name and I didnt know it was her! And Babydoll is coming back. I've been bugging her to change the layout for the forum for a few days now...maybe she'll do it this weekend. Finally...hehehe and soon I have to scan some pics for a new layout here and keep my kissy pic, unless I can get one where our lips are closer...>D mwhahaha that would be sweet.
I was writing my DanHwan one shot and I stopped all the sudden cuz I lost my feel for it. T.T I didn't even get to the lemon part yet. T.T booness....so I told Babydoll and she sed she would get some ideas, she'll help me. So I was like cool...my co-writter. Most definatly. I don't know where my feel for that is. Anyway I didn't accomplish shit again. I just finally finished up my fic with Aein, Cyndi, and Little Ghost. That's good. It's called Roomies and speaking of which I better send out to the ML. I was glad we finished it, but said it ended because it was so much fun writting with all them ^_^ I asked them to do a sequal...Little Ghost is down and I think Cyndi is too...which if we could get Aein to agree would be mad jiggy bean cool. I wanna write a sequal.
Anyway besides that, my oppa was being such a pain!!!!!!! He emails me like a kajillion times with pictures and scripts of what he wants on his webpage because he doesn't know how to do it, and he makes me do it because he thinks I'm some great compy guru. So I get all these emails with pictures and scripts of what to write on the page and I'm like DAMN O.O I had to learn some new html because I didn't know how to do sum stuff...ugh pain in the ass.....so I finally get it all done an hour later. It's up at Asian Avenue...his name der is Represtin4KP...so look at his page, at all MYhard work....T.T
Anywayz, besides all that, my Babydoll is SOOOOOOO CUTE!!!!!!! Babydoll She's sooooooo cute!!! I jus wanna hold her forever and pinch her and pat her and jus give her lots of hugs and kisses!!! I'd pinch her so much....hehe but not hard jus softly on her pretty face! Okay that really made me happy. I'm so weird. Hahahhaa Anyway....my daddy's birthday is today....well 2morrow March 30 but it's like 10 to 12. I still didn't do my english paper...but...ugh...I don't wanna...I'll make up all my other assigments before I do this...cuz this is like so sucky.
I'm still madly in love with Matthew's Never, Ever I was listening to that a few minutes ago and I played it twice. I so wanna get that CD now just so I can play it in my car as I drive to school and stuff. Hahaha. Anyway, I also gave my speech in class...it was the first time I wasn't ridge and couldn't make eye contact. I did pretty good. I even used visual aids because I talked about K-pop! Heheheh I put up 3 posters, 2 of H.O.T and one of Shinhwa and talked about why K-pop was better then american pop. -shrugs- I thought of it last minute. Hehhehe
Back hurts...still....Maki stole my randomness!!! LOL but it's all good. Maki-chan can do that because I love her. And I now love SHABBY!!!!!!!!!! But for different reasons that I will not explain for her own saftey...and we have to fight...because...well...she sweats my man. LOL...but everyone knows how I get. Waaaaahhhhhhhh my Jeanie dongsang is so cute! -waves- All my dongsangs make me happy! And like the few unni's I have because like....I'm old. LOL. -yawn- I got to speak with my Ji Sun oppa too...I told him how wack Hye Sung was being because of Erine...boo. He just laughed and was like, Hye Sung is wack...he needs to stop. I'm like yeah most def! Ugh well at least I don't like Erine no more. Not like Hye Sung has a reason to be wack anymore.-sigh- My back still hurts. I think I might just ditch English class 2morrow...get sum sleep and shit.. aiya...laterz~
One Luv~*
Thursday, March 29, 2001 - 11:36 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Everytime I get lost in deep thought, I sound depressed and sad. I don't mean too....it's just that all this sadness I have inside, that I try not to think about it. But when I do, I sound so sad. I am if I think about it.
Anyway, I made Kara happy. ^_^ She quoted part of my fic in her blog...I couldn't believe she liked it enough to quote it like that. ^.^v Cooley. I'm happy now....Kara's happy. I finally, finally finished sending Don't Cry Baby. All of it is done. Woo good for me. Thank god I already finished up to the half way point in my new fic. I could start sending that too.
I was so sad when I talked to BC. Erine figured out I liked him because BC was telling him how Hye Sung was hatin on him so he asked why and well...he's not dumb. He was flattered...I guess that's a questionable plus right? He's very forgetful, so he didn't remember who I was...with any luck, he'll forget about this whole thing completly, because I decided I no longer want to like him and I turned off the emotion switch. I see no point in liking him anymore anyway...besides by May he's going back to his home town and that's mad far from me. Like I said no point. So I guess I don't like him anymore.
DanHwan Isn't that cute?? I love Jin Hwan's pretty pouty mouth. So lovely, I so wanna suck on his lips... Another thing, I was going through the H.5.T as always and I found some beautiful pics.Baby Taya ^.^v Taya was a BEAUTIUFL baby. Baby Taya 2 And even as a child... Slightly older Taya and this pic too. Child Taya He was a beautiful child that grew up into a beautiful man....I saw these pics and I was like wow...he is going to give me a beautiful baby. Our child is going to be so pretty. And I want a boy too...he's gonna be perfect just like his daddy. If anything he should have my lips because Taya doesn't have 2 lips, jus one hehehe but that's OKAY...he doesn't need two lips. XD Besides...it's not that I'm trying to suck...mwhahha >)
I have to write 36 Moons I left it hangin...but I'll work on it and some new drawings soon. T.T sad...I feel sad...got a bout of sadness real quick even though I shouldn't feel sad....T.T I also have to scan stuff for my forum. Right now it's so slow it's depressing....and get someone, SOMEONE to make me a ban ban since Babydoll comes in and then leaves...she's been so busy lately, I can't get anything done and I need my blog layout changed. It sucks cuz I don't do this myself so like...I depend on Babydoll to do it for me. I'm bout to get someone else though...this is jus silly.
-sigh- I started work on my DanHwan yesterday but I don't like it, so I'm gonna erase it, and do it again and make it a real pwp. That way it'll be much easier.
Okay must go write. Laterz~
One Luv~*
Thursday, March 29, 2001 - 06:42 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I did so much of nothing today. I succeded in nothing but sitting in front of a computer tody and writting my Jekkie lemon. My first one. Honostly...i don't know how it turned out. I wish I could give it to Kara right now and have her IM me so she can tell me, yes I love it, or no I hate it. She tells me that she's amazed by my work a lot of the times...and I guess it's because of that reason, that I feel as if I failed as a writter if she doesn't like something I write. I remember once she told me she didn't like something...i don't remember what it was but she said she didn't like it. It wasn't as if I wanted to cry and go boo hoo I suck, but i felt as if damn I failed Kara...what a suck ass writting job I did. And it didn't help that at that moment I felt like a failure already. I felt unsatified with my work and hearing that, made me think, just for a second, why am I waisting my time writing? I felt like callin in my retirment. Just for that moment I thought about turning it all in and just sit on the net and read fics and become a fan rather then get one.
I didn't give up though. At last count I have now written 62 pieces of work. 24 long stories and 38 short stories. Some are bad...some are good. Some I recommend, some I just wish I never bothered with. I don't know...anyway, what brought up this random blog, was the just a few seconds ago, I read Kara's blog about if she's happy or unhappy and that she feels happy now but she attributed different things to her unhappiness. As for me, I decided to take a look into that myself.
Am I happy or unhappy?
I think I make a big deal out of the little things in life. Because what seems to be an everyday event to most people is the greatest thing for me. I can't stay out late at night, I can't go leave me house past a certain time, I can't go to New York, I can't do anything that should make me an indepdent 18 yr old. I'm about to be 19 yrs. old...and because I lie, I have done all these things above. My parents, my mother more, is constantly afraid something will happen to me to the point where if I ask her to do something and she disaproves but sees i want to go, will cry because she feels like the bad guy. She isn't, shes my mother and granted they are allowed to worry no matter what...but this is serious. She won't even let me go to a college campus down the street from me,a five minute drive because she's always afraid. So I lie...but if I didn't, I'd never my house. So this makes me unhappy because as in where in most people younger then me can go do whatever, I must scheme and plot before I even leave my room.
My lonlieness is another thing. I have been lonely for...maybe about 4 yrs. now. Hye Sung, who I call my ex, isn't a real ex. He was someone I was with for maybe 8 months, but I never labled as my boyfriend. He was the guy who sought me on the regular, gave me affection, bought me things and put his arms around me...but not my boyfriend. I fought with him too much to ever care about him on more then just a physical sense. I knew nothing about him other then the basics. He often made me unhappy because he would argue with me over really stupid things. For the 8 months I spent with him, I only have about 3 or 4 really good memories with him, and the sweet things he did.
Kang Ta right now, is probably the only thing that cheers me up when I have boughts of depression. It doesn't help that I have friends who can't comprehend my prolems, or friends who have their own prolems, or friends whos problems are so far greater then mine, that mine seem so trivial and pointless that I feel embrassed to even bring it up because it seems so petty. I have one best friend that's always busy, working or school or whatever, and my other best friend that will never give advice and not hold me when I cry. She can't express herself, and i don't mind that she can't comfort me when I'm down...it's not her fault. She'll listen, but sometimes I wish there was more to her then just a good ear. I still love her though. So facing the fact that I have no one to turn to, i write, and I talk here, and I keep it to myself, letting it pile up with all the other things in my life that make me unhappy.
My misery lies deeps in me...and often it's so much it comes out in gouts, surprising me, and more often then not, lingers for just a few hours then vanishes.
I'm too depdent on other people...i feel that without somebody familiar at my side I can't do anything. I get bored online when Maki, Haya, Kara, or somebody I love isn't on, I can't sleep at night if BC doesn't call me, I don't go anywhere unless someone comes with me. I'm too lonely to be wild and happy on my own. I always need somebody...and that makes me sad that I'm so depandent for company, I will deny myself things...I won't eat alone either.
What makes me happy....I was actually happy a little while ago...I don't know I'm sorta chillen now...kinda in between, just thinking about what Kara said. Her words get to me a lot. And she sed in Linna's blog, that I'll love THAT BOI because she loves him. -.-;;;; I don't think so. And THAT got to me. -.-;;;; I finished my lemon of THAT BOI and Matthew. And I'm also late for math and I left my book in my car. =/ I'll blog more when I get home. Till then, I must bounce like an ounce. Laterz.
One Luv~*
Tuesday, April 3, 2001 - 01:32 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Okay....I know I was suppost to do another chap of 36 Moons but here's what happened.
Yesterday I ended up getting a phone call from my friend who was telling me that she wanted to go the mall and asked me to come with her. I was like okay sure. She picked me up not 10 seconds later (the wonder of cell phones...) and we went to the mall. Anyway, we got there and whatever and we started shopping for her because she was telling me how she was going to this party this Friday in Queenz (woo woo represtin for my Flushin' Queenz oppas!!!! ONE LOVE Holdin it down!) New York. I was like oh hotness. She's like yeah you wanna go? I'm like phatness hell yeah I wanna go! So she's like cool we should gettin matching outfits let's be wack like that. XD but I was like, nah I can't I don't have any money (I had 20 sumthin dollars to my name) She's like no worries, I'll pay for it an you can pay me back laterz. Awww sweet friend. I've known her since 5th grade man. Anyway, so we search the mall and finally we decided on these past the knee, strapless jean dresses. ^.^v She pays cuz she's a sweetie like that and then we go have a little bite to eat because I hate being hungry...T.T (damn food, boo!) anyway so we sit down and have a fudge brownie sundae which was good. And as we talked, she saw my planner (which I really wanna take pics of so I can show you people because it's so cute ^.^v) and she started going through it. She saw my pictures of all my friends of Little Ghost and her crew, the ones me and BC took before and all my ones of Amy. She's like these are so pretty. I'm like yeah the place that takes these is just upstairs. She's like we should take some now. I'm like okay! So we eat and then go to take pics. We wear the dresses we just bought too.
And the pics came out good! Only my scanner is being evil. But I scanned and uploaded anyway! First shot. I should have folded my hand man...T.T Second shot This one is actually better ^.^ U can see my tan lines though hhehee. Third shot Umm...I dunno this one is cute too. ^.^v Fourth shot This is the actual pose we got for wallets. The other three were proofs we got to keep. So basically....Loookie! Kang Ta's Baby can be pretty if she tries!!! ^^;;;;;; Imma b lookin like dat for mah baby 24/7 man. I can't be married to no guy that looks prettier then me. ^^;;; yes I can I'm lying.
AND my ex is STILL hating on Erine He needs to stop....stop being so fuckin wack Hye Sung. jerk....I don't even know why he's hating. He's got no legit reason. He just feels like hating on him. See man...this is why Hye Sung is wack. T.T jeeeerk. Isn't Erine a cutie though? Awww. -pinches Erine- ^.^ I don't think he'd want me really pinching him though hehehehe. ^^;;;; Ohhh speaking of pinching people.....BC and I were talking yesterday about who'd we like to pinch. I'm gonna go on about this later in the H.5.T but basically we were discussing who'd we like to pinch. She won't let me pinch Hee Jun and Min Woo. Aww but I wanna pinch Junie and The Woo!! =( She's being stinky and won't share. Well...if she even thought about pinchin my Taya I wouldn't let her....(but that's because she'd hurt him and give him an Indian burn!) She's so mean...she hates my Taya...=( -hugs Taya- Dun worry baby she's wack. LOL *Love you BC!!!*
Tell me why both of my wack ass school's servers won't let me get to AOL so I can check my mail! WTF up in this bitch...T.T. I need to get in so i can write my Matthew x THAT BOI right away. I have the idea and the need to get it the FUCK out of my way. LOL. Okay but for now...I'mma bounce. I'll prolly blog later when I'm dying of boredum waiting for my friends to show up. Laterz~
One Luv~*
Wednesday, March 28, 2001 - 08:20 a.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Did I ever mention how much I HATE eating?
T.T I hate eating, I hate food, I hate the process of having to take time out to get something to eat, I hate the time it takes to chew and process food, I hate the pain you can get if you don't eat or the whining that accompanies the hunger. T.T
I'm only mentioning this now because I am eating now. My mom thinks I'm trying to starve myself, and unlike almost every friend I have, I don't enjoy food. I rather fill myself up on liquid. I love Skin Snapple Tea, Raspberry too. I love Snapple period. And like Kara I love coffee. I intake as much as coffee as I can, when I can. I also love those Haagen Daz smoothies as fucking expensive as they are...-.- (7$ a fucking cup!) If I didn't ever have to eat, I never would. I don't enjoy it, I eat when I have too. Granted I do have some fav foods, kimp bap, white rice, bul-go-gee, pizza, peaches, potatoes in a anyway....it's still not enough for me. I don't like eating. It's such a pain in the ass.
I have about a million things to write today and it turns out my so called art paper wasn't due today but the 3rd of APRIL. -.- I could have started work on my yummy TonHyuk part, or the Matthew x THAT BOI....or whatever man...I have an english paper due and I'm not doing it. I'll tell my proff. that I couldn't do it. I need more time. My next english class is on Friday. Tonight, I will work on 36 Moons and my secret fic with Chibi, Aein and Cyndi, and maybe if I have time, I'll start my Matthew x THAT BOI.
Anyway....yeah....OH goody goody.... Chibi's blog She FINALLY opened it. WOOO Go chibi, go Little Ghost, go Little Ghost. -does 1Tym dance- OH you're also SO LUCKY I couldn't find a pretty HyukTa...T.T cuz YEAH HYUKTA JJANG MWhahahah she mentioned how I was rubbing it her face when we met. MWhahahahhaa. >)
DAMNIT LITTLE GHOST....he is NOT A DUCK. My Taya is a bunny. ^.~*v heheheeh. Oh yeah speakin of which I finally figured out what my speech is going to be on for my Public Speaking class will be on. K-Pop! I'm also bring in visual aids. Hotness. Anywayz besides that....nothing much else. I must write...I have lots to do. >.< -sigh- OH YEAH....you know what else JOOLEZ this is NOT what I needed to see first thing when I come in your blog! THAT BOI all in my face!!!!!! >.< Kara made me look at him before...T.T You guys are just gonna make me tolerate him if I want to or not huh? Aiya...(_ _);;;;; poor ganged up me...laterz
One Luv~*
Tuesday, March 27, 2001 - 04:34 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I sat in front of my compy all day today.
I swear to God. I got home around 4PM. I would have been home earlier but I had to stop at BC's house to get my new Taya poster, Jinusean's comeback, my H.O.T I lent her, and 2 Korean text books. I let her borrow my Utena tapes, and YSJ's 2nd album. Anyway I got home at 4 and changed from my school clothes and got in front of my compy, and I've been here since. It's now 10:20 PM. Isn't that sad? I have no life. I had nothing else to do day. So I just changed and sat here. Math class was most boring. Tomorrow I get to face my art class...oh joy and rapture. UGH I just remembered I have a paper due...okay I'll do that in a minute. Good think I remembered! ^.^;;;;;;
-yawn- oh wait besides sitting here I wrote like crazy, but I was also swamped with IMs. I did manage to write my new fic and 36 Moons Which is here ^.^: Part 13- Within Truths and Lies I still have a long way to go in this...aiya....too much to work on. Anyway...
I started buggin the other day when I wanted a ban ban of my own like the one my daughter Janie has hehehe. ^.^ So I asked her for one and I asked Chibi for one. Now I have two! Both are so pretty. Imma jus use both cuz I love.
Janie gave me this one ^.^v
and Chibi aKa Little Ghost gave me that one. ^_^
Both are mad jiggy beans cool.
I wanna change my layout again....-sigh- I wonder if I could get a different kissy pic? Maybe one where our mouths are closer XD a glimpse into the future. Also I'm on the hunt for other Taya pics I can find out there. I would LOVE one of Taya like this one, Jin Hwannie I got that from Ailyna's Eye Teasers for you Good site too. Anyway, if I could get one of Taya like that it would be oh so skippy...but look damnit my Taya can do whatever he wants and still look damn good.
Speaking of which, I've been d/ling songs all day, and a recent one I got was Lil Moe's Super Woman. That is SO my song. Here's why:
Baby, they can't play you
cuz I'll save you with my super powers
I may be only human but I'll be your super woman
DAMN RITE. I'll defend my Taya. That's rite I'll say it again MY Taya. People piss me off. Anyway....I got Tony socks XD. I bought white socks the other day with monkies all over them. I wore them today and I was like I got Tony on my feet! LOL I'm a dork. Of course no one was around so I could share sed joke with.
Tell me why I'm SO MAD at Matthew. Why? I heard his song Ahk which means Bad, and I could see why. T.T The hook was like, I got the shot gun if you wanna fuck with me...or something like that. And he said Shut the fuck up in there too...and also can I get sum p*ssy. I was like T.T Matthew no....I lost a little respect for him for this song. It was just bad. yeah BC didn't feel that too much either.
I blog so much don't I? It's addicting I tell you. Shabby sed that to me in my email, that I blog a lot and she's like scrolling down endlessly. LOL....well I always got something to say on random subjects.
Okay but I'm done for now. ^.~*v
One Luv~*
Monday, March 26, 2001 - 10:24 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I bet I caught everyones attention with that title.
I guess I have some explaining to do, mostly because I checked both Joolez and Kara's blog and both are hanging me with my words because I wrote THAT BOI's name in my blog. T.T;;;;;;;; I will never do it again.
LOL I'm playing I probably will. People for a long tym now have always asked me the same question why do you hate THAT BOI so much? -.- It's something I rather not talk about mostly because it makes my blood boil and I swear I jus wanna go off and punch him in his dopey face and knock that corney ass grin off his face.....but alas, due to the things I love, I can no longer do that.
as much as I wish I still could.....
Well it all started once I got involved in K-pop. H.O.T was first in foremost. Well much to my shock I found out -gasp- there are other groups out there. O.O well look at that. Okay so I opened my mind, and I explored other k-pop groups. Goofy was second, didn't like, then Shinhwa, they were okay, then SES who I hated, and then Jekkie. I heard a rap part first and I gave snaps to Matthew aKa Eun Ji Won ^.^v woooooo. Then this voice came on that jus made me go >.< WTF?? After hearing the peaceful beauty that is Kang Ta's voice hearing whatever I heard was jus ewwy. I couldn't appericate it. I tried to, and I thought it was just me. So I was like, maybe it was a bad tape, I gave it the benifit of the doubt.
Sometime later, still reveling in the awe that is H.O.T, at my former unni's house, my friend BC takes out a disk with fury, shoves it in the compy and opens a few files and brings up a picture of a then, young looking kid. I was like o.O this isn't Hee Jun....because the hair was that of Hee Jun's Wolf and Sheep, complete with pink, purple and light brown strands of hair. Though I was realtivly new to H.O.T I could tell Hee Jun's trademark hair and face from anything and anyone, considering I was a former Hee Jun fan. BC points with anger, "LOOK at the BOOTLEG Hee Jun wannabe." I was like....eww...how dare he copy? What kind of wackness is that, that you steal someone elses hair style and don't even try to be slick about changing it even so slightly? I got mad, and I turned away from the screen and said, "Who was that anyway?" My friend clicks off the picture and my unni sez, THAT BOI (she didn't say THAT BOI i just don't wanna write his whole name), from Sechskies. I'm like sechskies? Isn't that German? Unni goes yup, German for Six Crystals. (come to find out later that sechskies doesn't even MEAN six crystals it's something else.) And that was the spark that ignited the hate.
As time progressed, I discovered more and more about THAT BOI and the rest of Jekkie. I had to learn their names because I couldn't talk about them to my friend BC and I found out Matthew Eun was the hottest one out of all them. I thought he was hot, even though for a quick second Jae Jin caught my eye before losing it to Matthew. Ji Yong was the other one that I thought was cute from angles but THAT BOI always worked my nerves. I think it was the fact that he just jumped in the camara in every chance he got, or gave that grin that just begin to work my nerves. Meanwhile BC hated JiYong (as Chibi knows LOL) and the more I learned about THAT BOI, the more I grew to despise him. I couldn't help it. And for a long, long time, I didn't even bother with Jekkie. They were jus sum other group in the background. i was too busy oogling H.O.T and most of all finding more reasons for me to fall in love with Taya.
And then sometime ago, I found out Jekkie was breaking up. Reasons unknown to me, I was like oh wow, that came out of nowhere. I actually didn't celebrate it because when I saw Matthew's face I could see he was really hurting from it. I felt bad for him...and though I never had anything against the rest of Jekkie, I felt bad for Jae Jin too who's face was red, tear tracks clearly visable even in pictures. I then saw them performing some song of goodbye where I think..Jae Duk had to turn away from the mic because he was crying so hard. It was sad, I felt bad for the rest of the group, but my heart hardend once I heard the voice again from THAT BOI singing. I fast forwarded through the rest of the song. Then a little more time passed and I had gotten to know Kara and whatever, everything was all good. I never agian imagined I would have to deal with the likes of THAT BOI forever, espically since Jekkie was gone. I figured he would fade quietly into the background....how wrong I was.
One day, Kara tells me she likes THAT BOI. T.T Not jus likes, LOVES and worships the ground he walks on. I could have bursted into tears hearing that...why...T.T? Why me? I was so upset, but nonetheless I figured that nothing I said or did could bring Kara to her senses, and I learned my lesson after I made her feel bad, blogging about him in the most negative way possible...(which I still feel bad for by the way) Kara in her own form try to get me to NOT hate THAT BOI....I started calling him THAT BOI because at that time, saying his name would get me mad. He became THAT BOI to me, because as old as he got, he would always be a child, a little kid, a boy. She made me d/l a clip of a molle camara they did on him, tricking him to believe he had shot Ji Won. I watched as he cried, fell about a million times and got dirty as he screamed to get Ji Won, and get him help because he had hurt him. -.- Even I must admit, it was touching to know he actually did care about someone besides himself.
Kara saw something in him that made her love him...it was something I couldn't even begin to see, mostly because his very presence annoyed me. Then I met Joolez, and found out she loved THAT BOI too....-sigh- it seems I could never get away from him...espically since Kara told me one day, "Guess what, your baby is going to write a song for my Hoonie..." ugh I wrote it again...but I'm quoting her. My stomach turned....and I knew this was a sign? maybe fate that I would HAVE to, in some form tolarate him. Taya befriended him, Kara loves him and so does Joolez, and Matthew is his friend as well. -sigh- to some degree I had to learn to stomach his presence. I figured I could no longer punch him in the eye if I ever saw him...I would have to be polite and eventually call him by his whole name because I'm NOT calling him "oppa" EVER. T.T I'd sooner tell Taya he was ugly....no way, it aint happening. I won't give him so much respect to call him "Mr." or "sir" and I don't love him to call him by that nickname of his...so one day his whole name will have to come out of my mouth. But funny enough I always call him THAT BOI, even to talk about him....chibi knows. She cracked up when she saw I really did call him that.
I have my reasons, for loathing him and wanting to knock him out...but I have to push them aside and learn to...tolerate his presence. Look I wrote an entire blog without saying a really bad thing about him. And I even wrote his nickname...twice....T.T though it hurt and Joolez and Kara are celebrating it to no end...and Linna too....T.T aiya...in fact Linna pointed it out to me. Aiya....-sigh- well anywayz, I guess the point of this is, I don't hate and loath him as much as I use to. Maybe 2 years back I would have wished for his death, but then I was like nah, death is too kind...just mast amounts of suffering. But now....I don't wish anything bad on him. I have to hope for his best...(mostly because if he's sad, Kara is sad, and so is Taya) so I guess I must be happy for him.
Joolez, I love your blog. ^.^v Matthew is mad hot. -sigh- yes Kara I will write for you. The lemon empress will...attempt to write a lemon about THAT BOI...but I need help. I don't know how to describe him....unlike you I see nothing adorable about him....(Jinhee!! The thing u tol me bout his show..LOL) so...umm...I guess I can sorta start...umm...his tase in friends is very good. ^.^v
There I complimented him.
Hahahaha! Okay...I don't know if I made a point...I just know I had to blog about this because my name and the fact I sed THAT BOI's name apperared in 2 blogs. -sigh- Am I really improving Joolez? Kara have I made you happy by learning I can tolerate him now? (because I can and it's so scaring me) -sigh-
But damnit Kang Ta is STILL a demi-god. ^.^ he's a hottie with all the talent. MWhahahaha had to throw that in for good measure. ^_^v
One Luv~*
Sunday, March 25, 2001 - 09:17 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Before I start with my rant...Part 12- Vinni, Vedi, Vicci ^.^v to all my avid readers out there.
Anyway, today I met Chibi in person! I called her Little Ghost when I saw her at the mall. We hugged and she was wearing this phat gray coat which I loved. Anyway, I also meet Lana a friend of her's. Anyway after I introduced her to my friend, Baby Chunsah or Junie's Bebe as she's known in the H.5.T, we all went downstairs and looked at this guy who was there. He had no ass. FB!!!!!!!! And I was trying to be smooth and say it to chibi so she could laugh with me and BC, so I said, Little Ghost, FB and I look at the guy so she could get it. So she sez it outloud Flat Butt? I'm like oi...U monkey. Anyway we cruise around the mall and we talk about TonHyuk and JunTa. I tortured her with HyukTa cuz she hates it! LOL I told her about the 4th Album GoodBye show and how Hyukie put his arm around Taya's waist and pulled him close and blotted his forehead with a napkin or sumthin...
Little Ghost did this >.<
Then she goes OMG he cheated on Tony!!! T.T LOL THAS RIGHT LITTLE GHOST HE DID. LOL Anyway that was the bulk of the convo. We also talked about my planner because I carry around this big fat thick planner filled with Taya's pictures because I love him ^.^v and she was like wow. Lana was a Tony fan so she an Chibiz had a good time goin through my planner goin through all the Tony and Hyukie pics. What's really funny as that BC loves Junie I love Taya, Chibiz wit Hyukie and Lana with Tony....in pairs we're JunTa and TonHyuk and BC is my friend, Lana was her's. So we had a good laugh on that. We also talked about lapdances and who we wanted one from and again my wedding. Chibiz sed she couldn't control herself if she saw Jun Jin....I wouldn't be surprised hehehe.
So we also had lunch, talked anime and then went to a dance practice at Chibi'z friends house. We watched for a while feeling very akward until Lana, BC an me had to leave, BC was driving not me so we were like we could take Lana home because Chibi had practice. So we took Lana home. Problem was we didn't know how to get back home. So Chibi and her wonderful self wrote directions. It look her over an hour T.T. It was really funny too because she used Icons and stuff little pics and whatever. I loved it. Chibi is so funny. Anyway also there's a highway called 35, and she's like take 35 north (Woo Hyuk!) she wrote that on paper...T.T I was like aiya chibi U dork. But it was still mad funni.
Anyway after all that, when we finally had to part ways, Chibi and I decided to see each other again April 6th for a dance thingy. ^.^ kick ass. I definatly liked chibi. She's a lot more fun in person then on the net but what I discovered about her is that she really does talk the way she writes!! LOL I loved her for that though. I teased her about it but it's all good. I had fun meeting her and I barely called her by her real name, I called her Little Ghost more. Chibi too. LOL I'm not use to her name, granted even though I know it, I'm use to calling everyone a nickname, Little Ghost is hers. Hehehhee. We also exchanged pictures and took one together. But Chibi gotta develope those. It was a lot of fun and I can't wait till we hang out again. ^.^
Aiya...other then that my back hurts and it's like 2:30 in the morning. I must be off. I wish I could stay longer espically cuz I'm talkin wit Linna but I must be off. It's late and -yawn- I'm actually gettin tired. hehehe. Laterz.
One Luv~*
Sunday, March 25, 2001 - 02:12 a.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I'm actually going out today.....T.T
For like the first time since I started spring break. Isn't that wack? I never go out when it counts. I'm such a homebody I guess....it's not my fault. I love the net...it's addicting. T.T Anywho....I'm going to the mall with my best friend Baby Chunsah and I'm going to meet chibi! Woooo bout freakin tym too....I was suppost to meet her 3 tymz before this and everytym it fell through. But not this time...I hope. T.T I haven't talked to her since Thursday...but I'll call her once I'm at the mall. ^.^v hopefully she'll show up and we can finally meet and I can blog about how silly and monkey-like she is. Hahahaha
As I wait I'm sitting here in my underclothes, a pair of jeans and my bathrobe cuz I have no idea what I want to wear. I finally got my contacts in too...I haven't worn these all week since I've been home...my face feels dry too cuz like....I need moisture. Anyway besides all that, damnit Linna you are so right....it sucks that women must be hairless except for their heads and eyebrows....T.T I so totally hate that. I'm gettin so lazy, I stopped shaving I jus use hair remover now....taking a razor blade to skin now is too much work. T.T hair remover much faster, easier, less painful. -yawn- I hate guys who have NO body hair. Who are just hairless like they stopped going through puberity or sumthin. Hate that >.< my oppa is like that. Freakin 19 yrs old and STILL can not grow peach fuzz on his smooth as silk, flawless (NO ACNE HAVING) skin. T.T can we say envy? yes we can....e-n-v-y ~.~
Anywayz...oh Linna I'd go with this pic for your blog layout. (you can see a buldge >) ) Good reason for anything. Anywhos, I wanna write but I don't have the chance too. Boo. My friend is coming to pick me up in a few....like an hour...and I'm still not even half way ready. i really should be getting ready rather then sitting here blogging....okay 5 more minutes.
I saw this really dumb question in the H.5.T forum today. It was, doesn't Kang Ta have talent? T.T;;;; well duh...where the hell have you been? Mars? In a cave, with your eyes shut and your fingers in your ears? Yes I believe so if you can ask a stupid question. I made a new policy on myself however. If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all. Don't drop the 2 cents if people didn't ask for change. ^.~*v I use to drop my 2 cents left and right...me and my big mouth. But now I just see most of the time I'm being cruel...so I just don't say anything anymore unless it's directed towards me. But I do it now because this is my blog and I can say whatever the fuck I feel like for sed reason. ^.^v
-sigh- Kaaaaraaa....I was hoping she would be on now...but I'm actually not surprised that she isn't. Linna missed her the other day while Kara was on...I was like >.< damn sucks for that. -sigh- I also found out I have unknowingly saved up over 80$ @.@ Over 80$ I can like...splurge...but usually I'm very stingy with my money...unless it's for H.O.T but even then the price must be reasonable. Joolez has gone miss again. Boo hoo. And much to my shock, because I was missing Kara so much, I actually thought about writting my 2nd Jekkie fic...and but THAT BOI in a good light...T.T
I must have REALLY missed Kara....
Kinda as bait to lure her back. Hehehhe so she can love me and talk to me. ^____^ (I sound pathtic...) anyway I was gonna do that....I still might actually do it. I've writting about THAT BOI before...I made him a model..T.T that was hard trust me. No I'm playin! It wasn't that hard at all actually. I've written about him a few times....I can even write that nickname that Kara is forever prasing...Hoonie.... ~.~ -shutter- but I can write it. I guess as a good welcome back, you've been missed present I can write a good nice fic about THAT BOI for Kara cuz I looooooooooooooooooove her. Hehehehe -glompz-
Joolez will love that too since she claimes to be his fan. Notice I sed "claims" she knows too much about Matthew for me to really really believe that. MWhahaha I love screwing with her about that fact Hehehehe.
Okay I said 5 minutes, it's really been 15. I'll blog later when I come back home from the mall and my visit (hopefully) with chibi. Chibi's if UR reading this before I get to u, call my cell. ^.^v
One Luv~*
Saturday, March 24, 2001 - 12:57 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I got in the best mood over all today. I'm finally getting to some good parts in my new fic so I can get into it further, I think i finally got a solid idea for The Devil and the Deep Blue Sea, more people are still enjoy my one shot fics ^.^v and best news of all....
Kara is back
Total joy and rapture when she IMed me. She eventually stopped responding, but that's okay. She was swamped with IMs because EVERYONE loves Kara. She was greatly missed in the world. ^.^v I missed her too. I also found out she has been reading 36 Moons and likes it. ^____^ I told her before, when I actually started writting it, I had her in mind. I was also terribly afraid of displeasing her...(I have no idea why) But she liked it. And that's good.
I was swamped with IMs myself which made me feel special. Linna IMed me for the first time today and we laughed and talked and totally got in the pervert thingy...^.^v I have found someone else to relate to. heheheh I didn't get to talk to Chibi or should I say Little Ghost. Hhehehe oh speaking of which...Part 11- Feeling Too Much, Feeling the Blood Run and yes Linna you are Wrath, I'm Silence, DG is Murderer, Chibi is Little Ghost. Hehehehe oh and Maki ( who I learned is also a BIG perv) is Vengeance. ^.^v Read the fic it makes more sense.
Also I was talking to Maki-chan about my wedding. Hahah oh man I said in the chat room the other at my wedding I would invite everyone, but I'm not hooking anyone up with anything else but a date. So I said I could imagine DG unni and chibi stalking Hyukie and Maki chan running after Tonhyuk hoping to catch them in the act, and since mah baby is friends with THAT BOI, he'll be there too and that means Kara will be there too, trying to shove either her hands, a camara or herself down his pants....(_ _);;;;;; or prolly all three. Since my girl Baby Chunsah is also in love with Hee Jun....I feel bad for whoever steps in her way. Aiya....oh yeah and Janie will be there too....following Hye Sung cuz mah baby is friends wit him too, and also she'll be yelling at me, for calling Tony FBT...LOL
Face it Janie, he'll ALWAYS be FBT....
That or Bungee Man...mwhahahaha I rather the Bungee Man...since we know and can SEE what he's packin up front. MWhahahahaha...I'm on the phone as I write this...so I can only imagine my friend's face. >)
Okay that's all for tonight because I really have to get off online and talk to mah girl....^.^v oh but one more thing...I'm so extra very happy that Kara is back. I so missed her. -permantly glompz Kara- tee hee. Joolez I miss ya too hun. UGH I must change this layout...I'm keeping mah kissy pic though...^.^ a glimpse into the future. Oh and check out Linna's aka Wrath's bloggy. She's silly. Hahahaha ^.^v laterz.
One Luv~*
Saturday, March 24, 2001 - 12:04 a.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Today was boring. In the real world.
Online otherwise I was busy.
First off...I'd like to say that both Kara and Joolez BLOGGED!!!!! WOOOOO They ARE alive ^.^v much happiness on my half. -does 1Tym dance- I missed them both greatly.
Joolez...I am talkin bout bitches left and right because people in the H.5.T forum piss me off to no extent. Tell me why this "person" named Inhyung sed sum dumb ass bullshit to me that made me whip out my blade and wanna cut her. She sed that number one Taya is hers and because she THINKS she's known him longer that he belongs to her..
~.~ Kang Ta's Baby is not amused.
So Hushie and me play...that's one thing...and plus I know Hush....but this..."person" is like...lookin to get cut. I don't appericate being told that. I'm bout to post my pic of me and Taya. Dumb ass hefiers...ugh JOOLEZ back me up you know what I'm like man....
How far I'm willing to go, what I'm willing to do, how much I fucking love him that I am driven to the point of tears thinking about it. I'm this close to depending on him to breathe. And if that's not love, then I don't know what the fuck is...and I don't think I ever will. Sometimes people get me so mad....I shake...and this is one of those shaking moments...I believe in destiny...and I believe he is my destiny....
ANYWAY.....besides that...before I forget and chibi kills me, Part 10- The Second Rising of Oakaden
Also to the chat gang:
Dragon Girl Unni= She's Jia Li, or Murderer mwhaahha
Chibi= Little Ghost. It fits. ^.^v
Me!= Toki ^.~v the little bad ass that I am.
Linna= Aoki, aka Wrath mwhahahaha
The rest we can figure out later, but chibis....UR Little Ghost.
The H.O.T Yakuza has formed because we are NOT groupies.
Never dat man....hmmm I wonder who SR unni can be....
Anyway thas about all I have to say. I must screw around a little more before I leave~ laterz.
One Luv~*
Thursday, March 22, 2001 - 11:44 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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In yesterday's blog, I said I wish something would happen...boy did I ever get my wish.
I was sleeping around 2 in the afternoon, jus chillen nappin, dreaming away when I got ripped from my sleep as my daddy was scareamin at sumthing. I thought him an my mom were fightin so i get out of bed and I go out into the living room and I'm like wtf is going on? My dad goes, someone jus hit your mom's car. (My mom was inside the whole time so it was all good) I was like WHAT! My dad tells me to call the cops so I do, and they run down stairs to look at the damamge.
Meanwhile I call the cops and they get there and I look out the window the whole time. See let me set this up for you people to imagine it. I live in an apartment complex, right in front is a horseshoe driveway where you can park. A long curvey area for cars in otherwords. There is a strip of land with tall hedges and bushes and stuff sepearting the parking area from the street. The guy who hit my mother's parked car ran through the bushes and hedges and hit my moms car with enough force to true it away an drag most of it into the street and then keep going an finally stop about...10-20 feet away only because he hit a rock from the people across the streets house. No one was hurt but that moron.
Point being, my mommy's car got totalled. She no longer has a little car =( boo. She drove a little red mini van an the guy hit it with such force it took off the back window completly! It shattered. It was all over the street. It also crushed the side of the top of the wheel. Aiya...sucks. But yo, thank God my mom or dad wasn't near the car. Otherwise I would have been arrested for kickin the shit out of that driver. Ugh...when I said I wish sumthin happened I don't mean this. I should have been more spacific.
Anyway, everyone is all good, so moving on. Here you go. Part 9- The Cornered Rat ^_^v I've been writting a lot of 36 Moons lately. Mostly because anything else is still in thought process and my new fic is just 5 chapters from being sent away as well. ^.^v The Devil and the Deep Blue Sea is still a thought in my mind. But I'll work on it soon. OH yeah before I forget, I drew this at 4 in the morning the other night. Mikkie's encounter This goes with the story so...you'll understand it more if you read part 9.
My back has been hurting all day long. >.<
Still calling for Kara and Joolez who have been missing for far too long.
Damnit...I'm bout to brawl with sum bitches man....and it's actually not Hush. LOL -hugz Hush- Jus messin girl you know I luv ya. But on da real tip, I'm bout to pull out a knife and cut sumone yo...>( I don't like being disrespected. Fuckin people....
I saw Toy Story 2 yesterday -fuckin finally- I loved it!! I love Toy Story too. Hahahahhaa I'm such a kid.
I still like skin tea better then raspberry. But over all snapple kicks mad bootay.
UgH wonder if my friend will call me tonight...2 nights in a row she hasn't. She better cuz she saw Erine today!
I need to stop reading crappy fics. I read 2 already...ugh. I won't say who's or the titles, but let's say 2 things. ONE: Too much drama makes it predicatable. TWO: Yeah I liked that idea, it was good when i saw it in Hana Yuri Dango....go to TonHyuk & JunTa forum to get what I'm talking about in the second thing I said.
Okay enough of that. Back hurts.
One Luv~*
Wednesday, March 21, 2001 - 10:52 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Okay before I start with my randomness....here we go: Part 8- Fierce: The Rat that Bites Back
Get use to it while you can, I'm only working on one fic for now and Don't Cry Baby is still being sent out. Oh and also....I finally got around to drawing Aya. He's pretty I know. ^.^v I actually drew that a little while ago, but I just forgot to scan and upload...been trying to finish all this other stuff first. Oh and today, I drew Toki again He's easily becoming my favorite yakuza. Maki-chan knows why. Also this picture isn't even done...I have to work on it alone because just Toki by himself is too...plain...
Oh my God....can you believe I actually met someone that wants to go toe to toe wit me on Taya??? As PSYCHO as I am...she's brave. But it's Hush so what else can I expect. Did I mention this before?? I forgot...I'm loosing my memory. And also I found out there are traitors among us...-.- Kang Ta's Baby is NOT amused. So not cool man...Maki-chan knows what I mean....grrr....-shows claws- BACK UP OFF MY TAYA. God...why don't people grasp this yet??? I swear when Taya and I marry, Imma jus sit down and tell him all the funny stories I keep hearing about little girls that wanted him when they knew he was mine. Then he'll laugh and show me his pretty smile. ^_____^
Kang Ta's Baby I was playing with my web cammie thing and I was able to write my tag straight across it. ^.^v that was some hotness. I might change the font color though. Second day of my spring break...still at home, still as bored as ever. Anyway, I'm still wondering where the hell Joolez went. I miss her greatly now...and I'm still missing Kara (there's a void that's hard to fill) and also I miss Babydoll. Why I miss her since I get to talk to her usually everyday? Easy she's not really herself anymore and granted that's a REALLY GOOD THING but I don't know...sometimes I feel like I'm talkin to a completly different person....-shrugs shoulders- I guess it's just me.
I so miss hearing about Erine...my friend gets to see him tomorrow so goody for me. -sigh- I get good luck with him..I wish I could get him...maybe from then on I'd have something to blog about. >.< This is just me rambling.
Damnit Hye Sung (cuz I know you're reading over KP oppa's shoulder) You are SUCH a loser. Stop hating on Erine just cuz he's not a pretty boi like your fragile lookin ass don't mean he's ugly! I should show you guys my ex. He's like...the worst pretty boi I've ever seen...well maybe not as bad as THAT BOI....but yeah up there...
MAN now I really miss Kara. I wonder if she would like 36 Moons She likes anime...I wonder if she likes this...prolly not. Wouldn't expect her too. She was da only one that was really honest about my writing. I miss that. I feel that without her I'm just writting garbage...or maybe repeating myself. I don't know....I need her back.
Okay...enough of that. I'm off to go screw around some more. Laterz.
One Luv~*
Tuesday, March 20, 2001 - 09:36 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Finally...I got it done...Part 7- The First Step to Ruling Tokyo
Bout freakin time. I've just been needing to finish up all my other fics as soon as posible. I'm about to start work on The Devil and the Deep Blue Sea And I already started work on something new only my Maki-chan knows about. MWhahahhaa. Well I talk to her most so...>.<
MAN I wonder where the hell Kara and now even JOOLEZ went. Both of their blogs have died all the sudden. Shabby is working on her school stuff. So she's understandable...but then again so is everyone else. Oh man...and in April Kara is going to...Tokyo I think? or Japan (same place duh...) I forget. But either shes lucky! I wanna go to Japan! I wanna go buy mad stacks of yaoi, a concubine and see some sekshii pretty real bishies....T.T -sigh- lucky girl. She better take some piccs and POST THEM KARA -NUDGE NUDGE- anywayz...
This is my first day on holiday again. Spring break and I so need to get the fuck out of my house. My mom is driving me crazy...as usual.I just can't stay here anymore. I'm so beyond bored I have nothing intresting to talk to anybody about because I'm home all day. T.T
OH....tell me why my ex is so hating on Erine. My ex, Hye Sung to me, HanGok hyung to my oppa, is SO hating on Erine. He saw his pic when my oppa was reading my bloggin -waves to KP oppa- and he Hye Sung was right behind him being nosey, so he saw his pic and just went OFF. I was like...WTF...why ARE YOU HATIN? I have not spoken to Hye Sung since he left for Seoul last June. Except this Valentine's day when he emailed me. I wrote him back a thank you and that was it. My ex is SO flippin werid.
Anyway, yeah...I have nothing intresting to talk about...you know why already. I so need to get out of my house...T.T Laterz.
One Luv~*
Monday, March 19, 2001 - 11:11 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I have finished Don't Cry Baby
Of course my ML hasn't gotten it all, but from where I sit, I no longer have to work on it because it's done. So now that I have all this free time, I can start the idea that's bugging me, I can work on my other fic with Cyndii, Aein unni and Kristine and maybe I can write a few more short fics. I have free time!! OMG that's so great but sadly enough I still can't work on 36 Moons today either. I have to leave because dinner will be done soon, and I can't come back because I'll be watching Queer as Folk at 10. I have to close a bid though. It's such a pain.
Anyway I talked with my friedn the other night and she was telling me how she's gonna tal;k to Erine for me. >.< OMG thas so cool. LOL I sounded like such a dork.
well I must cut it short my dad is being err....laterz.
One Luv~*
Sunday, March 18, 2001 - 09:09 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I had to wake up today due to horrible pain in my stomach. I was so mad. But what really sucked, was after i popped mad pain killers, I couldn't go back to sleep because I had to go shopping with my mommy. First I had to get my eyebrows done. See, this lazy little girl likes to have them done and trim and thin....but I hate doing it myself. So I get them done proffesionally. I get them waxed and usually everyone tells me, oh man it hurts...blah blah blah. But I get it done, it doesn't hurt.
Well it didn't until today! The dumb hefier that did it, didn't really waxed them, she TWEEZED them and that mean she took tweezers to the underside of the eyebrow right over the eyelid and most girls know, that spot is SO sensative. Being tweezed there for like...a minute is the most bloody fucking painful thing ever! I suffered through that. So basically she only waxed my eyebrows twice. And then tweezed them and dodn't do a good job either. AND she had the nerve to charge my mother 12$ for it.
I noticed I was red...well pink around my eyes from that when I left. It looked like I had ODed on pink eyeshadow. Ugh...anyway I left and went shopping. I got a pair of new jens, and my size is usually a 7/8. I have gone DOWN to a 5/6. I lost weight! I was like wow....cool. I got 2 new shirts. One was a zodiac sign shirt that sez Gemini, though I was really tempted to get one that sed Libra...^.~*v we all know why. But I got another shirt instead that sez 0% Angel. MWhahahah kinda to make fun of my friend, who her \"husband\" gave her the nickname Baby Chunsah (Angel) And she's on this whole angel trip....and the other reason was because, I am pretty naughty. I even found a shirt that sed, I do Naughty things. MWhahahahaha....>)
I also got Princess Monokoke...OMG good ass anime movie! It was bangin. I loved it. It was good as hell.
Anyway the title of this blog is to express how happy I am for a friend of mine. I rather not spread her entire buissness so I wont say her name or every little detail, but basically, the jist of it is, she found love. She's loving her life for the first time ever. It's like she emerged from the dark and saw the light (for lack of a better term) and she's happy. I'm happy for her. I am because she's been needing this for a long time. I started to know she was in love long before her because of how she spoke and the way she acted. No one deserves it more then her.
It sucks for the rest of us though that still remain single and lonely. I don't mind ever listening to her, it makes me happy. I know she needs someone to listen to her...and I'm glad that even though I couldn't be that one that made her as happy as she is now, I'm happy I can hear her vent. It's all I can do for her. But anyway, besides all that, I know that maybe someday something good will come across me...hopefully that something good will be Erine. For some really werid reason, I am hoping he'll be that one that can lift me out of darkness. I'm hoping...
The epilogue for Don't Cry Baby is done for tomorrow. I can finish that tomorrow and then I can start work on my other fics that I've been planning for a while. Which is always good. And finally I can pick up work on 36 Moons
I'm spending all the money I don't have. I bought my H.O.T Organizer today, and I wanted Yp Tomato 4...but I couldn't get it damnit. So I got Teen Star 4 instead. They had indivual posters anyway. Though Tomato was better!!!! =( Again this is why Angelpop sucks.
I entered another fanfic contest. The Smtown club one...I entered Delphain, So Beautiful, So Special and Solitude I'm hoping I could win again. That would be pretty damn cool. If Delphain wins, that means Kara, and Babydoll win too. ^____^v then Babydoll and I could make a nice little ban ban to announce that.
Anyway as I sit here an chug my skin tea, I better finish up. I'm rambling now. ^.^v
One Luv~*
Sunday, March 18, 2001 - 12:12 a.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I'm sorry everyone. I didn't get write 36 Moons today either.
Actually I should be happy, but I'm actually a little sad. You see I finished The Butterfly with Black Wings today. It was schedualed to be finished tomorrow. I had 2 chaps left. But, then someone, named Fae because yes God damn it I am so pissed off I will use her real name, replyed on the G-fic ML and wrote out what she thought was going to be the ending. Now I had to the ML about a zillion times before hand, don't guess, don't bother too. And what does she do? She might as well have given me a fucking thesis on what she thought the ending was and not only gave it to me, but to the entire ML. Now if she was wrong, or even slightly off, I would have ignored it and it wouldn't have mattered...but the problem was, she was right on. I couldn't deny it and fix it and change it and make it different because I was 2 chaps away from finishing it. So basically, I had 2 options, one was scrap the fic, but I don't scrap anything...espically when I'm 2 chaps away from being done. But if I did finish it, there was no point in cliff hanging the first chap to write a second one tomorrow espically if people read her email. They would know what would happen because you could start to tell what's going on by the end of the last part. So I made it into one long chapter and sent it out along with a nice long letter stating how she fucked everything up and if she was so fucking great, then she should have written it herself. The whole point of the fic was to surprise. When she did that, it ruined the ending. No way I could change it. And not only that but she disrepected my word after I said, don't bother fucking guessing!!!!!! T.T;;;;;;;;;
So basically I was forced to end it too fast. I also made a promise that I would no longer send out long fics to that ML. My own ML will recieve my long fics, my forum will recieve them and that's it. And my blog will get 36 Moons The G-fic ML will be getting my One shots, short fics. I can't afford having her read my shit and then sooth say it to everyone. So needless to say, yes, I am pretty pissed off. Do not fuck with Kang Ta's Baby and her work man. That's like fucking with Kang Ta's Baby and Kang Ta! It's like holding a loaded gun man. Don't do it to yourself. I may have lost a fan but you know what, OH WELL. Not like I knew her and she was my friend or nothing.
Anyway besides all that bad shit that happened, I did nothing. I'm going shopping and Dale rose from the dead! >.< I thought he died and left me alone...but nooooo he called me today. >.< damnit. He was still talking about how much he likes me and he has not spoken to me in almost a month now? o.O um no. But we didn't talk long. I'm going shopping with my mommy and shes going to kill me once she finds out I bought Pastel 3 with my credit card. >.< and a Kang Ta notebook. Total= 28$. Aiya....she's gonna go nuts on me. Why did I buy that notebook!!?? Oh I know...because I saw Taya on the cover lookin sekshi...>.< I'm in debt because of him. But he's worth it!!!!!
My whole body hurts and I got a little of a headache as I stressed and nearly cried in frustartion because of what Fae did. But now I'm cool. I was also in a bad mood for like...a few hours. But I saw Taya doing THIS so I felt a million times better. The pose is very porn starish....very very sekshi....mwhahaha. Now if he was just turned towards me, and had on pants...or just boxers..or just my sheets. Anywayz, Dude....Jae Won is getting so freaky sekshi....SR unni if you read this....dude U r one lucky chicky....Wonnie is getting all grown an ish...-totally random had to add that in-
Back to my debt. I'm bidding on sum shit I shouldn't be bidding on and I just relaized I can pay it off in parts, which totally kicks ass. I don't have to be poor 24/7/365. Cooley....anyway I have to pay my first debt on the 18th. That's when it's due. Aiya....I already have 45$ to my name, so I can start paying. Skippy. ^.^v
Okay I must go. Tomorrow with any luck I'll get to finish Don't Cry Baby and that way I can start work on other stuff, and work for a new fic for Delphain. ^.^v
Aiya...my bum hurts...laterz.
One Luv~*
Friday, March 16, 2001 - 11:32 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Since I couldn't blog about shit yesterday because I did my Hee Jun tribute I didn't get talk about how I went to NY and didn't have fun at all. T.T
I went with my two friends Jasmin and Michelle. We sat together on the bus there because it was a class trip. All the art classes had to go because we had to write a paper on galleries we saw. Anyway, the trip started off bad from jump. Mostly because Michelle and Jasmin had their own thing. I didn't hang out with them as much so they had all these inside jokes and stories they shared between themseleves. I might as well have been sitting by myself. Anyway, once at NY, we went with 2 other guys who were pretty chill people. We had fun and laughed and bugged out but after a while, I calm down. And then buggin out, being loud and obnixious isn't fun anymore. However they were going on strong long after I calmed down. It wasn't fun anymore. After we had breakfast, they had to go see Jasmin's mom for lunch. But the rest of us had gallieres to go to. So when they went, me and the 2 guys went to finish our work then they took to me buy FTTS new CD in K-Town. There I saw my Ji Sun oppa! I was so happy to see him. I asked him to join us, (so at least that I would of had someone to talk to) but he couldn't. I was like boo. Anyway, we went to meet up with Michelle and Jasmin later, and then the isolation began for real. They barely said two words to me after that. Neither did the guys. As we waited for the bus to come get us, I sat alone on a bench as they sat a bench away from me and talked among themselves. They also kept making jokes and when they laughed, they stared at me, which totally made me feel like I was the butt of the joke. Anyway, they (the girls) also kinda tease me to no end about the wacko in my art class that likes me. At first, you know I laughed too and was like ha ha. But now it's more like, okay you need to stop.
When the wacko found us, we were at Chelese park sitting. He didn't say anything to me but everyone else kept saying aw look your boyfriend. And that's what they kept calling him, my boyfriend. First of all, let us NOT even tap how immature and very middle schoolish that is. Second of all, it's not funny. It really isn't and I'm at my breaking point. I'm about to go off on them I swear. Anyway, they kept staring at me when he came to join us, whih was so annoying. When the bus finally came, I did what I should have done from jump. I sat alone. I listened to my new cd and played snake on my cell phone as I was taken back to campus. Once there, I got off the bus and started walking to my car when I heard Michelle and Jasmin call my name as they said to call them. Um no. Needless to say, I didn't call and I didn't have fun. Which totally sucks because I always have fun when I go to NY. All I kept thinking was how much I miss my two best friends.
Anyway besides my sucky trip to NY, I got the new FTTS CD which sad to say the only reason I bought it was to get the song I Want which my baby wrote. I liked Yak Sok and Shy Love too...but the whole CD was one long romance ballad and it got really tiring after a while. I only listened to it in it's entirety once, but I listened to I Want a few more times. I dunno...too much romance after a while makes my stomach turn.
Anyway, besides ALL that misery, a bit of good news for me today. My best friend called me today and told me she got her pictures back. I went to her house onmy way to school and got my picture of Erine. ^.^ Erine's pic Babydoll doesn't seem to think he's cute, but like I said, we have different tastes. She liked the way I desribed him though. So yeah, anyway, that's Erine, my latest want. Hehehehe
Again, today I didn't write 36 Moons I too a lot of time doing that one shot for Hee Jun's birthday. I have no idea why. The Butterfly with Black Wings is coming to a close and so is Don't Cry Baby So I'll have more time to write. Which is good. -yawn- I beter be out. I have lots more stuff to buy before I get offline. Laterz.
One Luv~*
Thursday, March 15, 2001 - 10:53 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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On March 14, 1978, Moon Hee Jun was born.
He grew up with blood of actor (his mother and grandfather) and the soul of a musican (his father). A true to life, modern day renaissance man, Moon Hee Jun is a song writter, actor, singer, dancer, and cherographer for H.O.T. He probably has more talents we have yet to see. He is also concidered a great comedian as we all know, Hee Jun is a goofy ball.
Number 23, color yellow, he is known for his funky tradmark ever chanageable hair color, and his witty (Also known as the Wit Guy) humor. That charming smile can make anyone else laugh and smile right along with him. And whenever that smile is not present, all fans are sad, and we feel his pain. We sometimes hate him for making us love him so much.
His resemblance to the Gremlins charchter Gizmo is also known very well, giving him the nickname Gizmo. Though he also has a rather odd attraction to Pokemon's Picaku as well. (I think it's the yellow) And today, Moon Hee Jun turns 23! His candy number. ^.^ (In Korea they say 24 because a year is added on) Me, personally, was once in total lust with Hee Jun. Before Kang Ta, I saw Hee Jun during Wolf and Sheep, which my best friend (a Hee Jun fan) says is his best era. Anyway, I saw Hee Jun and totally thought he was hot. Physically, Hee Jun is known for those big wide eyes of his, his cute button nose, and those full lush lips...or better yet these Hee Jun's best feature He is also known for his orignal and creative styles during each era that passes. ^.^v
Now for the pictures. I scanned these from the few thing I have of Hee Jun, since my friend jacked me for most of it. Let's start with his younger days and work our way up. During Candy days Hee Jun worked this fuzzy visor thing with deillypops floppying around them. I loved those. They always made me laugh. He also donned these big hoop earrings and had his hair in a black ponytail sticking out the top of his head. He was the first, and so far ONLY guy that can rock wearing hoops as big as mine. There was the Junsah era, but I didn't like that era too much because they all looked kinda dirty. ( I think they got into the warrior thing just a little too much.)
Following Candy, there came Heng Bok , Wolf and Sheep, and We Are The Future. (I don't have any W&S pics...friend) In the 2nd jib, Hee Jun went from adorable Heng Bok to sexy Wolf and Sheep, We Are The Future both styles worked wonderfully on him ^.~*
Then the third jib. There was Yul Mat Chul (Line Up) and Beet (Hope) He had braids during Yul Mat Chul, but afterwards shead them and went back to his famous angle for Beet and then the mix melody. In between the 3rd and 4th jib, H.O.T did commericals for their drink and their perfume. The Tic Toc commercials featured a sweaty Hee Jun in a wife beater. -drools- A good return to the sexy stage.
In the fourth jib, there was Iyah where he donned a fake ponytail and large metals claws that freaked a lot of people out. But still, this showed his Beauty more then anything else. It was also during this time, where Hee Jun was hurt during the 918 concert. So many fans cried and admired him for coming out in the last song, though he was in so much pain he couldn't even get up after the song was over, just because he wanted to. Though eventually he recooperated just fine, we still worry about him and his health. During the 2nd jib, he had hurt his knee and his shoulder. Hee Jun's physcal sense of health is not all that well, but because the love of his fans and his music, he goes on, making us worry even more. It was also during the 4th jib that Tooji came out. He came out with a completly different look for himself twice during this song. the second again on his beauty
And finally we come to the 5th jib, Outside Castle the first single to come out that Hee Jun, wrote, composed and directed all himself. It was instantly a hit. Going from the candy apple red hair to a lighter shade of pink, he eventually rested on his favorite color Purple ^.^ all though now it's actually white. In between the 5th jib, H.O.T did a NCD which was just a intreview with all the members then a short screening of them doing what they like most. The picture is of Hee Jun driving. Hee Jun has also recently aquired his racecar driver's lisence! ^.^v
And basically I love Hee Jun too. He's so smooshy soft and cute! Which is why i did This Moon Hee Jun has required the total and upmost respect from me. So we all love Hee Junie! Much love to him.
One Luv~*
Wednesday, March 14, 2001 - 10:25 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Okay, usually I allow myself one cut per month, otherwise I get all screwed up and lazy, so I try not to over do it.
Today was my cut of the month. I ditched public speaking and after art class, I went to my friend Michelle's house. We had food and watched TV and played on her compy. That was basically it. It was still better then sitting in a public speaking class. Boo. UGH but in my art class,I swear everyone is having a fucking field day with this bullshit about the wacked out guy with the art lingo. Everyone just thinksits so fucking hiliorious. T.T I'm so glad I can entertain everyone....yeah....anywayz, so everyone was kinda laughing at me, kinda more laughing at him cuz he's fuckin wack. Everyone knows it. But anyway, he barely talked to me...which is GOOD. >.<
Besides that, I feel fat T.T but that's just from the Lucky Charms I had earlier. And anyway, I carried around the picture of me and Mark and just everyone I knew, LOOK don't we look cute together! ^________^ Because we do. And I found out from my friend Jasmin that he does have a girlfriend. But I was like SO? I don't care, WE look cute together, his girl is wack, WE look cute together. ^.^v
Be damned if I know what his girl looks like. But she is one lucky heffier. T.T But anyway (we still look cuter together) Besides that, I now have a picture of Mark dancing, his like dancing dancing pic not the breakin one, in my car. ^.^ right under my CD player because I can't stick it in front of my speedometer and stuff cuz it's too big. My friend Michelle did that with the picture of the guy likes though. Boo. So I have this little thingy underneath my CD player, and I just stuck it in there. ^.^ Now I have Mark and my baby Taya wherever I go ^.^v
And due to Dr. Chibi's glorious conclusion, he is a flip.
Anywayz, I went to see Kara's blog today and WOW look she BLOGGED! and 5 Times too!!! I read all of them (except the Japanese one) and was very happy to see her up and blogging. I still miss her greatly though.
MEANWHILE....as I state over and over again how cute me and Mark look (because we do) I sit and wait for Erine. He's still cute. ^.^ I can't wait till I get a pic of him too. Maybe I can put that one in my car too! ^.^ Gah...Erine is so hot.
Before I go on any further...Part 5- The Introduction of Matso Aya Before I forget to post.
Tomorrow is Hee Jun's birthday! (In Korea it's today but you know what I'm not in Korea cuz if I was, I wouldn't be typing now but with TAYA...anywayz) Tomorrow I will pay full and total tribute to Hee Jun! *pinches Junie* A special fic just for him will be sent to G-fic ML and here, will be pictures of the little Gizmo all from my private stash. ^.^ I will pay true homage to him. So 36 Moons will not be posted tomorrow. Sorry! ^^;;;
I'm off to NY tomorrow people! PRAY I see Tony!!!!!!! Wouldn't that be so cool if I did? I think It would be werid. Hahahhaa. Anywayz, I must bounce because I must wash my hair. It's kinda vile....>.< Laterz.
One Luv~*
Tuesday, March 13, 2001 - 11:19 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Okay first and formost before I forget, here.The fifth part of the 36 Moons Part 5- The Scars the Bind. The Real Thickness of Blood
I finally scanned my pictures and that's the NEXT thing I'll be showing. Don't mind the evil scanner AND if you don't see the pic the first time, refresh them. Here we go. ^.^ This is Mark walking He was waiting for his turn to break in that pic. He was just rolling around. Don't mind the many heads in the way. I was sitting down and behind some people at this point. Boo. Mark breaking In these pictures if you note the bottom one (cuz there're are two so scroll down) He went right off the floor in his move. He didn't get hurt, he just got a lot of movement. ^.^ Mark walking and dancing In these two pics, he was just walking in the first one to build up speed. He needed the whole look of the dance floor. In the bottom one, he was doing some back flip thing. Note the little kids in front who were just in complete awe. ^.^ shit i was too...
Anyway, Mark dancing (not breaking) and a painful move In these pictures I was in a better spot. No one in front of me. In the first pic he was dancing around, being a fool. (A cute one though) In the second pic, you can see he's on his wrists It's his style. I was like DAMN >.< But I was mad impressed. Mark showing skin I was still in my good spot in these pics. He's showing some skin because he was flipping over and stuff. In the bottom pic...don't ask >.< He was just...turning himself into sumthing...I dunno. Flexablity though >) Still in my good spot. In the top pic, he was on his head. I wish I could have gotten a front pic of him showing skin. I would have gotten the nipple and belly ring. >) The bottom pic was when I was in my bad spot. You can see my friend (in the gray) who brought me there that night! Hehe silly me. ^.^;;;; Mark's arch This one was when I was in my bad spot. >.< BUT It was still good enough to see that Mark was arched like a freakin bow. AND he's on his wrists in that pic too. >.< But look at that ARCH....aiya...
And finally, after seeing him in all these weird angles and posese, here we go. Kang Ta's Baby and Mark. ^.^ People tell me I look mature in this pic? I dunno. AND I'm smiling. At least that's what Maki chan sed. I told her, well look what I'm standing next too! Wouldn't YOU smile? Hehehhe so yeah me and Mark...I think we look cute together. ^.^ and LOOK he goes to Rutgers. Yet ANOTHER reason I need to go to this school.
Believe it or not, I still have MORE undeveloped pics of Mark to get and scan up. But my ditzy friend has my camera which she better not loose if she knows what's good for her. Anywayz, totally random blog. I just had to share Mark and post up chapter 5 of 36 Moons I should write a little more. I have time too. But eh...I might. I dunno...T.T I need my spring break. On Tuesday, I have my art class and my public speaking class, which means I get to go to the mall before class and shop. Then on Weds. I get to go to New York. ^.~* Fun fun. Imma buy a present for my Babydoll like I always do.
OMG...my oppa Ji Sun, my now infamous model for my art class got in a little trouble wit his bf today. (remember now, he's the gay one...duh...) Similar to a story chibi told me, he was playing basketball with a few of his friends and the bf. Two girls were watching and 2 guys where watching, 3 played. Suddeny one of the guys (whos straight btw) goes, yeah Ji Sun, shake wut ya got! Ji Sun, being the bobo that he is, starts shaking his ass like his name is Ricky Martin. The girls start screaming lap dance, lap dance....which of course he obliges, but to the guy that started everything to begin with! >.< Let's say his bf was not to amused and slammed the ball down and stormed off the court. Ji Sun followed apologized and promised a more personal lap dance at home. ^.^ Horndogs...anywayz, when Ji Sun told me this I was like O.O ACK OPPA, my friend Chibi told me a similar story!! That's TOO weird. And it was.
My eye is hurting. In 2 months, I will be 19 years old. Omg I feel so old....but I'm not! ^^;;;;; And in 2 days I have start paying tribute to Mr. Moon who will be turning 23 years old. Aww *pinchy Hee Jun* I should give him a lap dance. Where's Taya....hmmmm....okay he can lap dance for him AFTER he lap dances for me. MWhahahah it may be his birthday, but he's MY TAYA....^.^ Laterz.
One Luv~*
Monday, March 12, 2001 - 10:49 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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My weekend was boring. I slept through most of it. One of my best friends is out of town and the other one has been working way too much. -yawn- I didn't do crap all weekened except for maybe today...I went to the mall with my mommy and got 2 shirts, both black. One from Express and the other from Bebe, cuz I'm a Bebe whore. ^.^ Anyway, I finally, FINALLY got my pictures of sexy Mark back. ^.^v and to my surprise I look okay in the picture of the two of us together. We make a cute couple. hehehe ^.^;;;;; But I can't post them up because I can't scan them because my dad (who just happenes to hate all males) will totally get on my case....T.T damnit. I wanna show you guys! But I'll scan tomorrow.
Oh speaking of guys, Chibi!! SC, I went to Woodbride, that guy with long blonde hair (not "Min") was there at the bear cart today ^.^v I couldn't say anything my mom wuz der. Boo.
Anyway, I didn't get any writting done yesterday until the early hours of dawn. T.T It was almost 2 AM when I got off online, with two chapters done. I didn't get to finish 36 Moons until today. T.T and this is it. Part 4-The First Battle. The Emerging and True Nature of Hashimi I don't have time tody to work on anything else because I have to have dinner soon and then I have to go watch my fav show, Queer as Folk. -yawn- Good shit.
Hee Jun's birthday is coming up soon. I have to pay tribute to Mr. Moon for his becoming of age and also write a one shot in his honor. Aw isn't he just so special *pinches Junie's cheeks* So smooshy soft. Anyway, yeah I like Junie anyway. He's so soft looking isn't he? I mean like skin soft. Like if you touched his arms or face or something he'd be soft...like baby powder. ^.^ ooo....idea...anyway...
The picture of the new people I'm introducing in the 36 Moons will be coming up soon. I've been screwing around too much...and also, more of Don't Cry Baby and The Butterfly with Black Wings I've finally thought of an ending for both and from where I sit, I'm almost done with one. Butterfly... still has some to go. -sigh- I need to start work on The Devil and the Deep Blue Sea that'll be worked on soon. I have too many projects for myself. -sigh-
Okay that's all I can write about for now. I still miss Kara. *glompz Kara* She's still alive hopefully o.O okay must go now.
One Luv~*
Sunday, March 11, 2001 - 09:10 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Okay, today, I didn't have to drop off my friend for Maryland. Instead I just had to go to her house and get my new March magazine. I love Star I think....the important thing is that, I got 2 new H.O.T posters. H.O.T on a boat from Australia, and a poster of my baby wit Lee Ji Hoon. Anyway, yesterday my friend was kind enough to inform me that Jinusean 3 was at my local Korean store and that's GOOD because I usually pass the store on my way back home and to school. So after my English class, I went there and and bought it. I didn't even start my car right away. I just sat there looking through the CD jacket, and laughing at stupid ass Jinusean for having a souped BIKE. I swear it was just a regular dirt bike, but it was all bling blinged out and it had MIRRORS on it. I laughed so hard because the previous night, my friend was tellin me how Jinu came out on a gold painted bike for their comeback. I couldn't stop laughing and then I see it in the CD jacket...it just made it worse. XD
Anyway, as I listened to it, I saw that Prodigy from Mobb Deep was on it and so was Cypress Hill. American rappers, totally throwing it down with Jinu and Sean. i felt really happy all the sudden for two reasons, both having to do with my cousin. I have a dork cousin who swears up and down he's black, and is also younger then me by a year. Anyway, when I first started getting into H.O.T he said, Korean music, hip-hop or rap would never make it and American rappers, singers, whatever would never be interested or want to work with them. And TWO, my cousin is like in AWE of Prodigy from Mobb Deep. He just wants to be him so bad it's kinda scary, which is why he got into freestyling to begin with. So as I listened to Jinusean, I recalled my cousins words and all i could wish was, damn I wish that loser was here so I could go OH LOOK PAGE, PRODIGY is getting with JINU AND SEAN, K-O-R-E-A-N RAPPERS....>)
It can't get no better then that. Plus, J is on that album too! She sings a song called Ohh Boy and I love it! I love it!! And also 2 songs, one called Real Wunz and Hip-Hop SEOUL-ja, reminded me of my oh so proud nationlist oppa. His nickname IS KPkiD. Everyone just calls him KP. I call him KP oppa. Hehehe ^.^ anywayz I heard those and I'm like geez I can see my oppa gettin down with this shit. I only heard up to song 7 >.< called 2 Run Hip Hop and I have 5 more songs to go. Yeah. But besides their music, Jinu is cute, Sean would be better if he fixed his eyebrows. He's got a nice profile...u get to see it in the CD jacket as he has a white pimp fur coat on and a bandanna on. ^.^ pants too. Hahahah anywayz, yeah he's my fav, I have no idea why. Sean just drew my attention. I'm werid. I guess the thug appeal? Maybe that's why I also like JK from Drunken Tiger. (Drunken Tiger hip hop LIQUIOR SHOTS!!!!!!) Anywayz, speaking of thug appeal....
After I got my magazine from my friend, I told her to have fun and to talk to Erine ^.~* Hopefully she did. Man I really wanna see him again. He's so cute...but I'm fickle. Let's see if I stay liking him to find out if anything will happen. Hahaha ^.^ But that's me. ^.~*
Well besides all that, I have written like crazy mad and I had tym to write out a new chapter for the 36 Moons. Part 3- Oakaden Hashimi Yeah let me know what you guy think. ^.~* I'm out.
One Luv~*
Friday, March 9, 2001 - 10:07 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Sorry I just finished this so I uploaded because geocities allows text, not pics to be linked. Which is really weird. But nonetheless I am grateful ^.~*
36 Moons Part 2- Mikkie Araya
Just click on the link for the next part. And also, a good look at Mikkie Mikkie I drew this kinda fast near the end so the bottom right hand picture looks a little messy and badly done. Mah bad...^^;;;;;; oh and I posted this before, but here you go for those that missed it. A look at Toki Anywayz, hope you enjoy that~ Laterz.
One Luv~*
Thursday, March 8, 2001 - 11:48 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Okay, it's official, Tony An, from H.O.T will be in New York sometime this month either before or after going to L.A. I'm pissed however. Why? Because. I'm going to NY the 14th and since I don't if and when Tony's gonna be there. Which totally completly sucks a whole lotta ass.
Even though I'm not a big Tony fan, it's still good to say, Yeah I met Tony from H.O.T. and it was cool as hell. T.T but I don't know. Maybe he'll be in Manhatten (though I doubt it because Asian center in NY is Flushing Queens. OH great my oppa prolly has more of a chance of meeting him then me. =T) Anwayz, if he is in Manhatten he'll prolly be in K-town. And that's just a really long sidewalk. Here's hoping the heavens will shine down on me and give me a little luck of meeting the famous Monkey Boy.
It's offical. I have a new crush. I got over James, and Jiho and Mark all within the span of a month. (Well Mark doesn't count because I don't know him and I've only seen him twice so he's also not a real crush) The new one is named Erine. I have gotten the seal of approval from Babydoll who loves his description of a thug that dances, smokes and is funny as hell. Also got a touch of ghettoness that just makes him more appealing. He is cute and got a tennis ball head. Which means fuzzy hair. But that's okay because he's cute as hell. ^.~* Babydoll wished me luck.
It's offical, I'm getting sick of my hair. Well no I'm not, I've just been in heavy consideration to cut it all off. I'm thinking about the Hee Jun chop, not his Outside Castle look but the previous angles. I thought about the candy apple red, but that's hard to match clothing wise. So I was thinking a nice caramel color. -shrugs- I don't know...I'm still thinking about it. I need more imput and other thoughts before I do anything.
It's offical, 36 Moons is now my third current in progress piece of work. People have liked it so far and I'm hoping to get more of it done soon. The 2nd part will be up soon, but in a link so you could read it there. I don't want my blog to be one long chapter of 36 Moons hehehhee.
It'll be offical tomorrow if I see Erine. With any luck, when I drop my friend off at school he'll be there. I hope I hope I hope. But my hair is all icky so I have to braid it back. Well just braid it in two anyway. ^.^ -sigh-
And it's offical that I have kept a theme in this blog. Hahahaha. I better go. I didn't do crap at all today. Just wrote like crazy. ^.~* Laterz.
One Luv~*
Thursday, March 8, 2001 - 11:12 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Okay...this is the first chapter. ^.^ I'm working without a net here so I don't have spell check >.< Forgive the bad spelling errors, and grammer. Aish...okay I hope everyone that reads tis, likes this. Feel free to email me with comments on what I can do better or what you liked and if I should continue. ^.~*
DISCLAIMERS
This is my own work. All orignal characters and story.
This fic will contain violence, yaoi, language and strong sexual content.
Don't flame me about how you hate it or how it sucked how what a pervert I am because DUH I warned you and I know I'm a perv >)This IS a anime story. Certain pictures will be produced at certain given times. Some of yaoi content.
36 Moons....an anime story without the pictures
Part 1 - The Misadventures of Arashashimia Toki
To start at the beginning woould take too long. So I'll just start from the middle. After all, it's where it gets good. I am Jia Li, the head of the 36 Moons, a yakuza oragnaization. I have more then half of my life, working for the 36 Moons, bleeding, suffering, and enjoying myself, all in the name of ruling over Tokyo. At this present date, I am only 23 years of age, and the present don of the 36 Moons, Arashashimia Toki, my right hand man and best friend.
I met Toki in middle school. I was automatically stunned when I found out he had passed his enterance exams to the elite high school without so much as even picking up a book to study while I along with fellow classmates have spent studdy groups and worthless hours of cramming information in our heads. I had scraped by to enter the elite. Toki had made it in without a struggle. When I congladulated him, I found Toki was far from thrilled. He barely cared, much less wanted to celebrate. But that only drew me to him further. We began to talk more often, and he became my closest friend. My other friends and class mates warned me not to hang out with him, but what did they know? Toki was smarter then them. I wanted to be with Toki.
When it came time for summer vacation, Toki and I spent most of it at the beach in Tokyo. We would get liquior and sit and drink on the sands as we watched the sun set and the waves crash upon the shore. These are my fondest memories. When it came to be time to go into high school, Toki packed his bags and left home. I didn't know where he was and I was scared for him. I entered high school alone, wondering why Toki had ditched me, last minute. Half way into my freshmen year, Toki came back. He picked me up one day after school, an expensive foreign car parked outside the gates of my school as Toki sat on the hood, dressed in a fine expensive suit. I ran up to him and we embraced as I asked him a million questions. He answered nothing until I got in his car. There he offered me fine wine and told me short and sweet, that he was yakuza. I was stunned again. Toki seemed far less of the type to ever be yakuza. But the moment he asked me if I wanted in, I accepted. Life, even as a yakuza, was unbearable, if Toki was not at my side.
I suffered a permate scar in my hand as test that I would do anything for my don. Toki had a similar one. I was handed a gun and trained to shot to kill, I learned how to hold my booze, inhale smoke properly, and learned how to take drugs. I learned about sex while getting a blow job by some concubine as I watched Toki fuck some girl not three feet away from me. The entire time, our eyes were locked. I watched later on, as Toki got his first tattoo, his given name by the organization was Silence. Because you never heard him as he came up behind you to kill you. He was Silence, deadly silence. The Japanese charcater of Silence was tattooed on the space between his shoulder blades on his back. More was added on as the years went by. An angel with black wings soon appeared beneath it, holding a scythe in it's hands as it donned a black cloak. It's black wings spread out slightly to fit on Toki's back as the feather tips reached to the middle of his back and within time, the charcater, Death appeared in the folds of the left wing while on the right, the word Stealth appeared. Between the body of the angle and the wing, in scroll like formation, the words, in kanjii were written: Silence will kill you. I watched all twenty hours of the work put into his back appeared. My tattoos where small and in different places. My given name by the organization was Murder. More blunt but it got it's point across. That given name was tattooed on inside of my forearm. Toki and I then paid the ultimate loyality to each other. On our hands, the space between our thumbs and pointer fingers, we tattooed each other's names. Mine was in Japanese, and Toki's was in kanjii. True to the very end.
Growing up within the walls of yakuza, I learned too much, too fast. I learned about loyality, I learned about getting the job done and I learned about death. I watched as many associates of mine where gunned down right in front of me because something had gone wrong. If not for Toki calling me out of the car to come see something, I would have been dead too. Toki grew up faster then me though. He was the one that taught me everything, and he encouraged me to get in good with the don. On the day of his passing, the don handed me his stocks, and with his blessing told me to take his place as the head of the 36 Moons. I did. And I suddenly found myself at the top. Toki at my side like I had been to the former don. Not wanting to be overwhelmed Toki helped me greatly. He told me what I should do, how I should work and eventually I got the hang of everything. Toki was my lead for everything. Everything was done on his word, his knowledge and I trusted him with everything. If Toki didn't know, then it was not trusted. He and I stayed true to each other...I trusted no one else.
On my 23rd birthday, my life was threatend. I was shot at...aimmed to kill. Toki covered me and proctected me as he fired back, his body, my shield. He took a bullet for me. I would never forget the pain he must have suffered as it tore through his flesh and his blood spilled on me. I carried him to saftey because he was too weak to walk anymore after the shooting. He lived and I thanked him, still in his debt as it had been the fifth time he saved my life during our years together.
I was a helpless little yakuza. I didn't know at the time why Toki had helped me get in good with the former don so I could take his place. Toki would have been much better at this that I would have. But it all made sense one day, as Toki went too far. he made mistakes in a job, shooting innocents including children and women, concubines, and the don of a rival organization. He broke into the house and killed everyone on sight. he came back drentched in blood. No one was suppost to be killed. Information was the main deal of everything and just a threat. But Toki felt he was being threatened and withing a matter of moments, everyone but Toki was dead. He came back to the organization and pleaded for this secret to be kept. If anyone in the 36 Moons found out of his mistake and his massacre, he would loose respect. I could easily shatter him and respuation and as the don, I could even have him killed for not following orders...but I didn't. He was my friend....so i stayed silent. His murders went untold and my own silence was responsible for over thirty two deaths when nothing was suppost to happen but an exchange of information. This is where I learned what a yakuza is suppost to do.
------Okay that's all for now~ Tell me what you think. ^.^ I thrive off comments. ^.^ hehehehe. Anywayz, hope you all liked it!
And also Kara I miss you too. And I'm so aware you love THAT BOI to little itty bitty pieces -rolling eyes-
And Shabby blogged AND wrote a fic!!! WOOO hahahah okay now I'm done for real~ ^.~*
One Luv~*
Wednesday, March 7, 2001 - 08:58 a.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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My english class was canceled this morning. What a PAIN. >.< I did my response paper, and I did a full 3 pages of double spaced, femmist bullshit instead of writting and talking to my Babydoll yesterday only for the stupid class to be cancled! T.T aiya...my luck. Anyway, once again I am killing time because it's Weds. and I have to wait for all my friends to come out of class themselevs before we can go fuck around. I'm a little worried about GQ friend...T.T aish. I hope he doesn't think I'm some sort of slut because I accepted his first kiss to me (I only did because I was in shock... duh...) and wait a second...that's not slutty. Duh great now I'm just werid. Anyway, besides that, I wanna see James. As always I look really cute for him. Though I have no idea why because it never fails that I only see him when I look crappy. T.T aiya....anyway....time to go random!
I finished my art project, (Only for that class to be canceled too T.T) and it was a BIG picture on 18x24 inch paper. It was too big for me to scan, so me and my genius mind decided to take a picture of it with my web cam ^.^ Anyway this is it. My oppa's face... See the thing is, that it was SO BIG, I had to take it in two pics. My oppa's tummy And that's the rest of it. I had to take the picture in two parts. Of course genius me didn't realzie I could simply move back a little more and adjust my lense I could have taken the picture in it's entirety. ^^;;;; but this is why I say genius me with the sarcastic undertone. Anyway, Babydoll thought it was a girl...^^;;;; and I was like um no? That's my oppa and like, the same guy you sed was cute in the past ruff sketches. heheh babydoll was like oh he's cute. ^^;;;; yes, we will let that slide.
Anyway shifting to change again, Joolez, I must bug you about it. If U like THAT BOI so much then...how come I barely hear 2 words about him from you? -sits and ponders- Mwhahaha duh, I know that Mr. Matthew Eun is oh so hot and sexy. And if u wanna show me the pic u have, email it to me. You know da addy ^.~* Aish, tell me why (and this is to everyone not just Joolez) my friend baby Chunsah just....totally hates Ji Yong. (is it Ko, or Go Ji Yong?) Anywayz, she just...loathes him. ^^;;;;; kinda like I loath THAT BOI, but I think she really really hates him. I don't blame her, I mean I heard he was a jerk....but I never met and Ji Yong fans either. I met, THAT BOI fans, Matthew fans, Su Won, even Jae Duk fans...but never Ji Yong ones...hmm wonder where they at. Anyway, I thik Ji Yong is cute, sometimes. he does look like a jerk sometimes though...like that kind of guy you just wanna slap the shit out of because he said something smart. But she has good reason to hate him. As I have my good reason to hate THAT BOI. He will always and forever by THAT BOI to me...which leads me to wonder....if I ever see him (assuming I see Matthew or my baby beside him) will I address him as THAT BOI...or will that be impolite? No way in HELL will I call him oppa. If I call him ANYTHING, it'll be by his name. T.T let's just see if I can get it out without making faces at him ^^;;;;
Oh and going back to the pic of my oppa, you can't see it in the tummy pic because it's too blurry, but he does have his belly button pierced. It's a small silver hoop on the bottom of his belly button. It's really sexy actually because he has nice abs. It use to be a barbell but he changed it to a hoop. He didn't have it in when I was doing my ruff sketches. So I was kinda mad at him when I told him to show me some skin and he does and I see this little silver hoop going through his skin. >.< Sexy mofo. And for those that may be wondering, wow your mom is really cool about having some guy come over and lay in your bed and show off his body and strip for you and stuff....well....there's a reason for that. (_ _) my oppa is gay. And my mommy knows because I had to tell her so he could pose for me. It's not like he's gonna get turned on or something....considering his boyfriend will so kick my ass if I even try. (They're like married yo, swear to God....it's scary but oh so cute)
Randomness....I considered working on the 36 Moons my anime, but I don't have a disk to save it on so i can upload it later to my server. T.T duh I'm swift. And I have all this free time too. I might just do the werid thing and post a chapter here...which actually isn't a bad idea. ^.^
My oppa in Korea is completly pissed off. He's being hasseled at college by students about not celebrating Lent. You see my oppa doesn't believe in God, and hence doesn't care. I do, I'm not a practicing Catholic but I do believe in God. My oppa has had some life problems and troubles that almost caused him to take his life, if not for his hyung (which explains why he'd ride or die for him), and because of said problems, never believed in God. If you ask him, why don't you believe, he says, I can't believe in someone who dropped me or turned their back on me. It's sad sometimes. I wish he did, or could believe...but he doesn't. He doesn't disrespect either, he just doesn't care, but when you try to push religion up in his face, he lashes out and he'll offend someone, like he did yesterday. he told off about three different people that urged him to celebrate Lent. He told them to fuck off and leave him alone. When they told him he'd go to hell, he said good. I rather go then be a fucking sheep all my life. =/ okay so oppa is not too kind when it comes to shit like this. But i can't blame him. He's just frustarted and it doesn't help when the only religion in his life comes from a hyung that is Buddist. No one else in his house gave a damn about it. They were all either, drunk, in jail, on E, busy with cops, school and/or girls to stop and think for a moment about religion. And even the practicing Buddist didn't become totally devoted until after he got out of juvi. Random shit, i just remembered.
Hope I didn't offend anyone. Sorry if I did. (_ _) Anyway,I better go get started on the anime thingy....I was just remembering weird random shit that had nothing to do with anything. ^^;;;; well I'm bored and I still have 2 hours to kill. Aiya...better go write. Oh wait wait one more random thing....I got email from unni in NY. She had a baby last year so I haven't talked to her as much anymore. She's fine. The baby is fine too. I think the baby's name is so cute. She calls it Jinu (It's a boy duh) because his American name is Sean and she's a fan of Jinusean. ^.^ Get it? Heheh. But she's a bigger fan of Jang Woo Hyuk, so the baby's Korean name is Woo Hyuk. I think that's cute too. ^_^ Now that's a devoted fan. Kinda like me and Taya. ^.^ Only I would'nt name my baby after his father....unless he really wanted me too. ^_____^
One Luv~*
Wednesday, March 7, 2001 - 08:18 a.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I didn't do anything today. And since I had some left over time yesterday before I got off online, I wrote. I wrote more then half of a new chapter for Don't Cry Baby I didn't get to finish it, but I finished it this afternoon. Also, I wrote more of The Butterfly with Black Wings and I was able to send that out and now I have nothing to do! I uploaded the stuff I was suppost to my new server, so now I'm really bored. I was going to work on my response paper for english, but I didn't. Instead I just looked at what I was to do and decided to do it later since I have to use my book and stuff. I wanna wait till my mom goes to sleep so I can work on my paper because I don't want her bugging me as I work.
So I might juist end up working on more of Don't Cry Baby since I figured the faster I finish this fic up, the sooner I can get to The Devil and the Deep Blue Sea and to my newest idea. ^.~* That one is a secret. Only Maki-chan knows about it so far. Yeah she's special. Anyway, moving along...
Since I moved my stuff to my new server, I can show you guys Mark! I showed Babydoll and she said he wasn't that cute. ^^;;;; Well Babydoll and I have different tastes so it's all good. The important thing is I think he looks good as hell...which just makes me wanna get my pictures even faster now. T.T Aiya. Damn snow. Anyway, this is Mark in action If you look really closely, you can see he's not actually standing on his hands, but his wrists >.< ouchy....and he did that MANY times too. ANd he did it this year too ^.^ By the way, my new server is Virtue.nu So if the pic doesn't show up, just refresh it. And if it still doesn't show up, mark it up to another server that doesn't wanna share. Anyway, assuming it does show up, this is Mark posing for me That was after he went on and he was waiting to find out if he was going on to the second round.
He hasn't changed much this year...i think he looks really good still. Just like the 1st tym I laid eyes on him. He was in all black...and a shirt that says Rutgers on the front. Prolly goes to a college ave....okay anyway I'm rambling! ^_^ But then again, that's what my blog is for ^.~* -yawn- I wanna wriiiiite. I really do. I wonder if I have school tomorrow. They say the snow storm is coming back in this direction so....hm...i don't know anymore. This whole week has been shot. Tuesdays where for me and my 2 friends, Jasmin and Michelle to go to the mall, and Weds, where for me to see James, along with my other friends...but GQ guy was gonna be there. T.T aish, he's so confusing.
I made a list of all the CD's I want. T.T It makes me so mad. All the ones in bold are a MUST get first.
Fly To The Sky 2
J's 3 Chocolate
Seo Tajii's latest one
Jinusean's 3rd A-yo
Matthew Eun's G
Drunken Tiger's The Great Rebirth(Actually I'm waiting for stupid Angelpop to send me this )
And speaking OF Angelpop, they FINALLY sent me the magazine that's WAY over due. I finally got Yo Tomato 1. T.T And they still managed to screw me because I didn't get my posters. But I knew about that. Oh wellz. I'm just so tired of waiting, I was like whatever just send the stupid magazine. I got a nice, H.O.T Layout and a beautiful Matthew one I'll scan later. Speaking of Matthew, Joolez sed in her blog, she got the best looking pic of him and she knew his comeback date and everything and what's really werid is that, if you go to her page, there's a big ol pic of Matthew right there.....the funny thing is...Joolez sez shes a fan of THAT BOI....o.O werid? I think so. But at least it shows Joolez has excellent taste. ^.~*
=( aw man...everytym I think about THAT BOI I miss Kara. T.T I hope she gets un-busy soon. I miss her lots. -yawn- Okay, that's enough for now. I better get started on my writting for tonight. Laterz.
One Luv~*
Tuesday, March 6, 2001 - 08:10 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Okay last Friday, I was just, bored, looking up some new anime sites to go and see. I always look for yaoi in anime, because damnit I love that stuff.
*Note: Yaoi is a boy x boy relationship
Anywayz, so I got to Anipike and searched the hentai/ecchi area because that's where they list yaoi too. So unknowing to myself, I see the link to B*Treats and I didn't think I should click it but out of curiosity, I do, and O.O it was YAOI site. Not just any old yaoi though, it's a BexBoy magazine yaoi site. Scan of pure lemon goodness. BexBoy is a yaoi magazine in Japan that's like mad popular....I wish I could get my hands on all the back issues...I'd be happy. Anyway, BexBoy is known for the lemony goodness, but BexBoy Gold is known for more hardcore stuff....straight porn man. But that's not the point. The point is, a perv like me, drooled for hours searching all six pages of lemoney goodness at B*Treats. =D~~ It was most definataly a treat. ^.^
I was telling my Maki-chan earlier, if I was ever in Japan, I'd go flat broke spending all my money on yaoi and a concubine. I want a concubine too!
Note* a concubine is a sex slave ^.^
And yeah I want a concubine...but not what it's used for. A pretty thin Japanese boy to look at and fondle and hold for a while, and to just own so he could sit there and look pretty for me, would be good enough for me. Besides....how the hell would I explain my concubine to Taya? I don't think he'll be too happy. Boy that would be hard to explain. I think after I grew weary of my pretty concubine, I'd give to Babydoll or Kara...they could umm...induldge themselves in him. I wouldn't have used him anyway. ^_^
Damn I'm a perv. Anywayz, so I'm still drooling over how foine and sexy Mark is. I swear his line from now is, Little young thing, goin around mah ** wit ya tongue ring.. I wish I could get with him. I'm getting over James but like so fast. I don't know why...just am. Like my oppa said, I'm fickle as hell. But Jiho is out of the picture too, James is following and Mark, and Erine are slowly coming in. Mark will soon leave though, mostly because I know I won't see him again and for the second year in a row, I'll carry his picture around in my planner like I did last year. Erine...i don't know...I just...sorta like him. He's that guy from my friend's dance team. He dances with Jiho too. ^^;;;;;; I'm so werid.
TELL ME WHY, that wacko from my art class, called me Sunday morning at 12 in the afternoon, so I could get up and get dressed to see his crazy wacked out ass. I totally had my phone turned off and I was sleeping. Besides when I woke up that day, it was snowing. So um yeah. It's still snowing...WTF....they expected this big snow storm talk about we'll get like 3 or 4 inches of snow...and so far we got like...I don't know ONE? WTF...werid ass weather. Mother nature is totally mourning something. I still wanna know what.
Going back to guys for a moment, my GQ friend called...he was the one telling me that he told James a little more about me. Telling him I had a nice body and stuff so he could get intrested. I'm like joy, out of all things to catch attention with. But he told him I was nice and sweet too. But he's going to Kali this spring break to see his girl. T.T THAT's why I'm getting over James mad quick. GQ friend is still talking about how we should get together. Which was werid. I don't like him like that, but all he wants to do is fuck me anyway, and I'm really not down. He's a friend...sorry baby, I don't fuck my friends. T.T
Anywayz, this little cow is hungry. I should write a little more before I have to get off, and I want a sandwhich. I have to develop my film so everyone can see sexy Mark in action. MWhahahaha. I wasted most of the film on him anyway so I got lots to scan. ^.~* Laterz.
One Luv~*
Monday, March 5, 2001 - 10:00 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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I went to the breaker competion today.
SO many HOT sexy mofo's everywhere. Oh man....and AHHH (screams)Mark was back.
Last year, when the 1st annual breaker comp. went on, I went with a friend of mine. He competed, and I saw Mark. Mark was this flexiable, sexy breaker that had his nipple pierced and his belly button, which is rare and oh so sexy to me. Everytime he did a move, his shirt would fly up and bamm....sexy six pack tummy wit a belly ring...=D~~~
I completmented him and asked for a picture. I got it. I scanned it but it's on my angelfire account. Don't worry I'll shift it over later. And anyway, he was nice enough to pose for me and I took the picture and walked away squealing.
This year he was back, and I was SO HAPPY because I didn't expect to see him, ever again. And sure enough he was there. Dressed all in black he did his best, but he didn't win =( Boo. I ended up cheering him for him. I was his biggest fan. I wasted the rest of my film on my disposible camara, and half of a roll of 24 pictures on him...probably more. I swear all I thought was damn...I so just...wanna rape him real quick. BUT I didn't make a move. The only thing I did was go up to him in the beginning of the comp. and tell him good luck and told him he was still good (cuz I watched him practice earlier) and then after the comp before I left, I asked him for another picture. ^_^ All he did was say thank you and just nod a lot. I really don't think he was intrested, which is why I didn't bother with anything else besides telling him he was really good.
As soon as I get ALL my pictures of sexy Mark, I'll scan them and post them up. You guys GOTTA see how damn hot and flexible he is. I swear I jus wanna lick-lick-lick-lick him from his head to his toes....
Little young thing goin around mah *--*wit ya toungue ring...
He didn't have a tongue ring, but he was just sexy and that song popped into my head when I looked at him. He's so hot. I asked a friend of mine to see if he had a girl or whatever....I thinkhe prolly does as stated.
Anywayz...besides the really good performances of the breakers and sexy Mark, thats basically it. ^.^ I had fun. I just can't wait for my pictures now.
One Luv~*
Saturday, March 3, 2001 - 11:21 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
-bouncing-
Babydoll did a new piccy for me. ^______^ LOOK It's me and Ta....-squeel- and I got sorta a new look. Call it new for March...but I don't think I'll ever take down that pic of me and Taya unless I get a better one, which I doubt I will WOOOOOO. ^________^
That has just totally made my night. *hUGZ* I love my Babydoll....
One Luv~*
Friday, March 2, 2001 - 09:14 p.m. - kang ta's baby [ email ]
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